i prayyy *fingers crossed*

dear God, I pray that I can get a Pass in this Legals Common Test. Amen.

i am not very confident...
i study.. but i cant remember..
i know the point but i dont know how to relate...
i know the answer but i dunno how to answer... as in put it into words...



* i have to at least get a 10 !!
1. my marks are affected.
2. FREE ICE CREAM waiting for me if i pass..

=)

sleeeeeeeeeep

i slept only for 3 and the half hours last night! dont ask me what am i doing.. definitely wasnt studying..
seriously, i cant believe i can wake up at 6am sharp today lorr...

as a result from that:
i look super tired in coll today,
i am moody (and getting mooodier),
i cant even sleep when i get back(omg..means im toooooo tired kut),
i cant stop buying things(whatever i see, i grab, and i pay.. luckily, i was in giant, hahha),
i feel dumber than usual,
im gonna have hair fall prob (jen says sleeping late can lead to hair fall tooo)
& i am broke Again...

today baru monday...
and i've just finished this week's allowance..
gonna survive with roti and maggi this whole entire week..

=(

i feel sorry for sp lorrr....
she everyday become my victim of complaints..
ishh..
hehehe
sorry yahhhh.... torture ur ears everyday.... =)

mai latest desktop background. hehe.....

i know la it looks so stupid...

the background black is because im moody...
the love shape is because i dunno how to do other shape...
the line down there is because... there's no other place to put it edi.. hahah

lol....

ya ya i know very very wuliao...

im losing it

question of the day:

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL SHOULD I DO?
I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE...
EVERYTHING IS SO DAMN FUCKING WRONG!

seriously lorrr... i cant take it anymore..

1. he is just too disgusting...
now i finally understand how my big uncle feel..
even I, ME, TZE CHING, couldnt stand him edi..
grandma .. cant help me...
mum .. completely ignores me...
eg. i MMS the disgusting pic to her..
and she called, and only ask whether i eat edi anot??
what the hell...
mum, i AM not having flu,
i am crying.. cant u hear it from my voice??

2. i find that she has problems
SHOULD i HELP MYSELF and leave?
problems as in mentally ill...

3. i feel stressed..
common test, cant finish study, all my fault i know

alll those things..
i have my limit lo...
my patience got limit de...
i dont know how long more i can stand before i really break down..
its getting there...
first 'volcano' has just erupted just now..

omg i so wish i am financially able to support myself.
i want to move out...

why cant they just understand?

(what the hell la weiii.... 'ming ming' the cup[s] belongs to him ok..somemore so loudly blame me for not washing it..fucker..i wash my own cups and plates starting from THREE weeks ago ok...and no matter how desperate i wan to drink, i wont be using THAT kind of cup also lorrrr...u wan uji and see whose cup is that right?? fine....go on la... im so fucking sure it urs lorrrr...and im angry because... even his MOTHER says please to me..omg what is wrong here?? *shakes head* i HAVE to do it because my grandma says PLEASSSSEEEEEE)

FYI: its not the matter of not washing cups ok... im angry because it has been there for TWO WEEKS already. or more. and what the fucking hell.. dah berkulat edi ok..
and the kulat thing, growing more and more day by day...veryyyyyy disgusting ok?


mum: why u sound like taht? u got flu???
me: no la... no flu
mum: then why sound like that??
me: nothing la... just for now onli laaa....(what the hell u shud figure out by now)
mum: what u mean just for now only??
me: haiya nothing laaa...
mum: eat already anot?? eat what??
me: bread laa
mum: why eat bread?? u din buy back??
me: no.. i came back at 1pm today
mum: house got bread ahh? (lol.. obviously got la ok)
me: ya...
mum: what u doing?
me: study la what else can i do
mum: *talks some thing not important.* k la study la bye


(YOU SEEEEEE.... SHE DIDNT EVEN MENTION ABOUT THE MMS I SENT TO HER MOMENTS AGO.. DONT TELL ME SHE COINCIDENTLY CALL ME MOMENTS AFTER I SEND HER MMS ok..)




another topic:
i feel like 'tian' playing with me lor...
why everytime also i face the same prob wan...
and every time is me..
yeah i do have self confidence prob...yeah i am boring..
yeah i dont like to argue with people...
doesnt mean i like to be pushed around ok....

2nd post on 3rd apr

very tired la today what the hell..wake up at 3.30am...miss call winnie..hehehe..thats how i started my day...lol then went back to sleep...then wake up at 6am, uncle went out edi..walaoeh...so early dun tell me go play golf lorrr...

ok lorr..today go coll..as usual..i have BIGGGGG problems in accounting lorrr..extra HUGE problem..sighhh...
today, i discovered a whole new hidden world in the library...wayyy wayyyyy up...
hehehe

tried study legals today.walaoeh..at the rate i am going... i dont think i can finish by next wed lorrr.omg i am so dead la like that...

actually today can come back at 3pm edi wan...but then, got the discussion thing at 5pm..so have to wait wait wait...

somemore no one teman me worrrr...
boring betul..but then, i did study a lil.. lol...
ok laaa.. lets just say/. i make colourful notes..hahah

look at the notes also know i didnt memorize lorrr...

then, during discussion thing, we were laughing like mad ppl..
lol.................................

then masa nak balik pulak, ishhh.. hujannnn.....omg...i walked in the rain again..hehehe..fun is fun....but....if im sick..then..too bad laaa.......
ter-amat sangat jamm lo today...

sampai rumah, uncle say he hungry edi...
so we go makan... omg...one whole week dun have proper dinner edi... till today...
hehe..today is too proper edi la... the uncle ordered too much...
imagine four person makan five dishes...too many horrr.....

then we chao first, go find the shop cuci baju wan....i told him i cannot drive at night, he din believe me.. then... just now, misjudgement...hehehe
nothing happen la.. just that, i cant really drive at night laaaa

omg i am so damn tired today lorrr....................

today: outside library

me: i have common test next week lorrr..
t: study edi anot??
me: just now la i just started study nia
t: wahhh... u just started ahh *becomes speechless*


today:inside library

m: hey tze c
tc: haiii...how are u so long din see u edi laaa
m: *says something*
tc: *replies her*
m: ehhh he's malay ahh???i thought he's chinese leii
tc: omg.. are u serious?? he's malay la.... *taps his shoulder...*
tc: ehhh.. u malay right??? she says u chinese....
* lenghy conv lazy type*

lol....



today:in the acct class

lec: check the balance sheet u do
me: *takes paper out, copy the ans on the board*
me: omg this is so hard i dont understand a thing
lec: done?????/
me: what the helll la weiii.... i dunno what the hell u talking laaa......

(of course, she didnt hear what i say)

i seriously suck at acct la weiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii............

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to know more
And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to know more

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Hold on