the very last post of april

i cried to sleep last nite.
i really miss home.
i really hate this place.
i really hate coming here.
i really wanna go home.
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so fast. its end of april edi.
never thought almost half de year gone just like that lor.
after may then its june edi.
june will b the middle of the year and its my mid year exam edi.
when think back.
what have i learnt so far?
am i prepared for the mid year?
no i am not.
i just keep wasting my time everyday.
i stil dun really how to do accounting.
even the basic general journal and general ledger also i dunno do.
and econs..
even if its easier than math,
i still think that i dunt really understand what it really means.
i onli know recession and god knows what else i knows.
and today,
for IT,
miss V gave the work for database.
i dun even know what crap is it.
and she says thats what will come out in practical exam.
i AM SO DEAD!
stil owe her a report on benefits and disadvantages if information system.
i tink i can stil manage psycho gua.
i just need to read whatever thats in the text book rite?
right??
i hope so..
one more month to my mid year.
if i dun do well,
i am so dead.
wx will b leaving for form6 soon, leaving me alone in IT class.
will i manage?
i hope i can.
i shall b independent now.
cant depend on her all my life.
haiz.
this is the end of the fourth month and i am still day dreaming.
i have trouble concentrating.
i have bad memory too.
onli last night i remember that i forgot to attend Economics extra class.
i am so very forgetful.
its on thursday. and i only remember bout it on sunday.
haiz.
i am so so ... speechless..,
i dunno why.
haiz.
thats bad.
i know.
april fool's long gone.
welcome labor day.
welcome MAY.
welcome the other me.
welcome the me who have more confidence wit myself, more dependent on myself and more hardworking.
welcome welcome welcome.

i seriously need to change NOW.
ok ok.
i put aside going back to sitiawan issue till after my mid year.
i will not cry again over silly things.
i will study.
i will try to understand and ask for help even if i dont.
i will ...

pictures

my current desktop image. gary and ling ling. i like this pic.

with flash.

without flash.

it is so so cute

flower

Vick's Album. front cover.

only rm16.90. where can u get so cheap de original album?

back cover

Kembali

Ku bimbang kita telah berakhir
Ku tak ingin melepaskan mu
Ku terlalu sayang padamu hingga saat ini
Kau hanya diam membisu
Kau tidak menyapa diriku
Kau berubah kini dari dulu tidak ku percaya

Mana hilang cinta yang telah kita bina
Mana janji manis untuk hidup bersama
Sekalipun jika dilanda ombak dan duka

Oh kembalilah ke pangkuan ku
Ku rindukan mu belaian mu
Oh dengarkanlah hidup ku gelita tanpa mu
Leraikanlah derita ini kekasihku

Mana hilang cinta yang telah kita bina
Mana janji manis untuk hidup bersama
Sekalipun jika dilanda ombak dan duka

Oh kembalilah ke pangkuanku
Ku rindukan mu belaian mu
Oh dengarkanlah hidup ku gelita tanpa mu
Leraikanlah derita ini kekasihku

Andai kau tiada
Hidupku tak lagi bermakna
Kembalilah kepadaku selamanya





Another song by Vick, this time its traslated to Malay.
The Chinese version's title is "hui lai"
lazy wanna type the chinese version here.
=p

彩虹天堂 [ rainbow paradise]

ren shi ni yi qian wo zhao bu hui zi ji
Before knowing you I couldn't find myself,
wo zhi dao ni gei le wo xi wang
I know that you've given me hope,
ke shi ni shen me dou bu yao
But you wouldn't want anything,
zhi yao shou zai wo shen pang
Just wanted to stay by my side,
pei ban zhe wo
Accompany me,
chuang zao le cai hong de tian tang
To create the rainbow paradise.


chorus
cai hong tian tang li wo men zai ao xiang
We sore in the rainbow paradise,
bu guan duo shao ju li he feng lang
No matter how long is the distance with wind and waves,
wo dou zhi dao
I know that
shi yong qi bian cheng le qi cai tian tang
is the courage that turns into colorful paradise,
mei li cang zhu wo men de ai
Our loves hide within the beauty,
ni de yen shen gei le wo wei lai
The look from your eyes had given me a future,
gao shu wo
Tell me that
ni ai wo ye cong bu li kai
You love me and that you'll never leave.

[repeat verse 1 & chorus]

If it wasn't for the understanding of true love from the smile,
I wouldn't even be in this rainbow sky.

[chorus]

Creating the rainbow paradise of us two.



a song sang by Vick Teo, from his first and latest album.
in case u are wondering who he is,
he's top 3 in the first season of Malaysian Idol.
i saw a rainbow this morning on my way to college.
Vick was my idol.
lolx

i din post anything for the past 2 days.
i think im tired and a lil depressed.
i want to go back.
but i cant.
saturday is wasnt a good day.
i know i want to go back.
but i am stuck in this stupid place.
spend kinda the whole day at home doing nothing.
feel very down n frust and all the negatie things comes to my mind.
then went to queensbay for dinner and some window shopping.
got some books.
currently reading 'annie may's black book'.
its been raining, drizziling these dayz.
mayb it affects my mood in some ways too.
alrite.
i wanna go back cause all my frens are back there this week.
this week's gathering may be the last one before everyone go study.
haiz
watever lar
this morning sleep till so syok.
11.30 only wake up..
very seldom got chance sleep till this late. ehhehe