ARGH!! I need to let this out!
feels like a volcano waiting to erupt. may end up scolding someone, anyone if i dont say this out here.
went into exam hall this morning feeling prepared to take on the battle. sat down, waited for the invigilators instructions, open the exam question booklet and WTF I DIDNTKNOWANYTHING~!
seriously, there is 13 questions, and i only knew how to do 1. and that is the essay question. alright, so i looked, and looked, and think very hard for answers, but nothing seems to come to my mind...
gave up and came out the exam hall early.
WTF I HAVE NEVER EVER BEEN SO... STUPID. NEVER EVER.
EVEN IF I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO DO ANY QUESTIONS, USUALLY I AM ABLE TO AT LEAST CRAP AND ANSWER ALL THE QUESTIONS.
BUT TODAY, I DIDNT. I JUST SIMPLY LEAVE IT BLANK AND WALKED OUT WTF IS WRONG WITH ME? THE THING IS...
I WASNT ANGRY OR SAD WITH MYSELF, OR DISAPPOINTED, IM JUST FEELING NEUTRAL. I CAME HOME AND FELL ASLEEP.
its like i felt numb already to all the negativity. i wasnt happy, but i wasnt extremely sad either.
i feel like giving up on life already. i just made my already-low cgpa even lower. fml to the max.
can i just give up studying already? clearly books and lectures are not my cup of tea, fuck the mindset that every1 needs to acquire higher education to have success in life. never believed that.
damnit i seriously dont know what the fuck is wrong with me...
the hsemate just said dun be sad.. and the problem is.. im not even sad...
i just dont want to talk to anyone and if i talked to you pls dont 'step on my tail' or i will bite you.
im stupid and i know it.