Monday, 24 November 2014


im tired. 

seriously tired. 

tired of all the shits i have been receiving.

being older does not give you the right to condemn me.


I WILL pull through.
I WILL survive.

let's see how this ends. 

some people are just too much. what did i ever do to make you this angry.
not competent?? tell me NICELY la. 

all the bulls I've been seeing, i know.
i know she wants me to leave.
but i wont. 
i will stay till the bosses asks me to leave. 


Wednesday, 24 September 2014


I have been working for a few months after a very, very long break. 

Few months feels like FOREVER! 

Tuesday, 21 January 2014


how did i come to this again?
well i was looking back at the old pictures, print screens..
arranging and deleting the unnecessary from hogging space in the external hard disk actually.
there are like tens of thousands to look through and manage. NOT a joke.
literally that many pictures.

and then i saw.. him.
actually it is the print screen of his messages.
but whatever. 

those early mornings and late nights,
those are the only times we get to talk.
those words.
those lies.
those games.

i missed him.
his last message to me was "im busy, i have lots of business."
he meant work, but google translate says business. 
yeah. we speak different languages. 

well you know what?
im busy too.

i cant believe i fell for it.
well, everyones kinda a fool when it comes to this.

this is the last im going to talk about him.

it was fun while it lasted.
thanks for everything.


i will not look back anymore

Tuesday, 16 April 2013


it's scary how people change.

it's scary how two strangers crossed paths and become friends, then good friends, then best friends, then probably fall a little in love, and suddenly.. everything changes. they slowly drift apart and become distant friends, then very soon, strangers again. this scares me, teach me not to be held on so emotionally with the new people i meet. but then again, when it happens, it happens. when two person clicked, they clicked.

it's scary how fast time pass. close my eyes for one moment and then another week passed.

it's scary how different mineral water taste from drinking water.

it's scary how accidents happen.

it's scary how a person get injured and then scars happen.

it's scary how ....


theres nothing to update.

i am still studying. sort of..
i am still forever alone..
i am still as bored as ever...

i am still lifeless.