Thursday, 28 August 2008


"i think..."
dont think. be sure.

i finished my essay today, which means i only attend class starting 9am...
but then, stupid ss15 always no parking de...
have to end up going earlier than everyone else also..

i'm broke...

been coming home very early these days..
something is wrong...

lastly, happy birthday to ikmal & kylie =)

Monday, 25 August 2008

1st time driving alone

i drove.

ahem.. i drove all the way back to Shah Alam from Sitiawan, alone.
yes, i thought it was impossible because they would never let me drive alone..
(i've been bugged with the SAME question even before i went back to Sitiawan, till the moment i left; you sure you got no fren going out to kl with you???)
mum and dad somehow say just becareful and leave early after they realise nothing can be done..
grandpa even say he follow me out and come back the next day with the other car..LOL
big uncle even said he'll come back and leave the car at home, then come out with me..didnt happen after i assure him i would not be alone.. lol...
i thought of leaving on Saturday, but then, if i leave means it would be one night less spent sleeping on my big big bed.. so i carry on with leave on Sunday plan.. lol...

i left at near 10am, went to ida's house to pass the form to her( i dunno what im getting myself into..some life game thingy), then chao...
anyway, i was near lekir edi, and then i thought, what do i have to eat if i'm hungry????
then i remember i didnt see the momo and also whatever food im suppose to bring back here in my car.. i called grandma and she asked me to patah balik..walaoehhhhh....

ok lorrrr, because of that, i left at 10.30am.. supposed to leave at 10am cause i want to watch TV at 12.30pm..haahha...

anyway, there werent as many cars as i thought.. and also, there were police blocks.. at the first one, i think its before the teluk intan bridge, walaoehhh.. i tot i sure kena edi this time.. cause he stop me and stare at me for a while, before letting me offf..phewwwww... dun wanna kena saman for some stupid reason lorrr...

if there's one police block, then there should be the second one..

i tried(very hard) to stay within the speed limit.. wtf, really can sleep la if u ask me drive 60kmph...

i got bored at one point, and started sms-ing.. yes, i was sms-ing when driving..and also taking pictures of the empty road..duhhhh....(i never say i am a safe driver ok)

anyway, i almost got lost..(thought i got lost)..

i turned into this kampung area..(can jalan also, but damn kampung...people use this way cause less car)
and i wasnt sure whether i missed any turning anot... so i went out to the main road and continue my journey again...

drove and drove...then see some familiar cars...heheheh
the secret to not getting lost is, pick some cars that u feel will head to the same place(agak2 larrrr), then see whether they're there anot if u feel u got lost..its not 100% accurate, but from stw to kl, can trust laaa...hahahah

then i reach at 1pm..

it started to rain as soon as i reach Guthrie Highway...damn de la..everytime i travel sure rain de...why curse de isit??? haizzz...
then it got heavier thru de whole stupid highway...then it stopped when i got to BJ..
then it rained a bit when i was abt to reach home...
and it rained heavy when i was trying to get down my car...
and it stopped after i got into the house...

STUPID right??

btw, i reach ngam ngam at 1pm... have to carry all the things by myself damnit...
very heavy ok... and its not my stuff summore..lolxxxxx...

i want to go back Sitiawan again, no matter how boring it is..
at least i got a new friend who loves to jump here and there...
and also yam cha fren..
dinner aka cucur udang buddy...
ice kacang buddy..
exploring a creepy place at night buddy...
& so on...

i want to go back la wth

Sunday, 24 August 2008

plan failed

crapped this post the other night when i finally had my hands on lappy... =)


I said I will come home and study.

But my come home and study plan didn’t work.

And now is the end of the week again.

What the hell la…

Yeah although I didn’t get near any laptops or computers or anything that can get me online, (except for today, for 5 minutes), I still don’t have the motivation to grab my book and start doing something beneficial. (aka study).

I brought all my books, notes, and rubbish back.

Yes, ALL.

I junk everything in my car, the morning I came back, then only to get it out of the car on THURSDAY EVENING and into my room the very same night.

(THURSDAY = the end of the week already).

Then I told myself I will sort my notes so that it will be neat and tidy (Ahem), but never work.

I went to sleep instead (WTH).

Then, I promised myself I would wake up early in the morning to sort those papers.

I took the FIRST step; I set alarm at 6.30am.

But I woke up to turn off the alarm and then slept till 8am.

Then, I told myself again, I will just spend my time with the papers in the afternoon, after lunch, before TV.

But, SMS came in and then I am out of the house, AGAIN.

I told myself I would come back early, but there were a little change of plans. =(

I came home late.

I finally ‘touched’ the papers, and was starting to sort them, and calls came in.

The sudden distraction spoilt my “sorting papers” mood, and here I am writing this crap.

I said I will was the car, since last Friday.

Today, the car remains dirty. Muddy. Layers and layers of thick dirt, like I went into a desert and came out. Lol.

I know, at this point, whoever who reads this feels like killing, stabbing, strangling me. I’m procrastinating.


I took the first step(whatever it is; I think I did), now is the time for second step(take out BUTs from my vocabulary).


**About my change of plans last weekend**

I planned to come home on Friday, but then, my mum plans to come on Friday, so I couldn’t come home on that day. And I couldn’t go to the dance competition thingy because my mum came. Lol. I was home and angry. Not because I couldn’t go to the dance thingy, but because I feel like I’m taken for granted (or so).

I didn’t rush home after my tuition just to let my UNDERAGE brother drive MY car around (MY CAR; emphasis added). Lol. And what’s worst is that, HE DID NOT ASK FOR MY PERMISSION.

I talked to my mum about the matter and guess what, she said “I drive your car need permission meh?????? I let them(my bro and his fren) drive ma.. like that also need to ask your permission meh??”

What the FUCK.

I couldn’t say anything cause I am NOT a good debater and I don’t want to FIGHT yet.

The next day, (fucker) he want out the whole day with his friend, and I am the one who has to go and fetch him at the end of the day. Like, I didn’t get to have fun but I am the one who has to go through all the trouble(FUCK) to get them home safely(DAMNIT).

Fine, then once we reached home, I was looking for a parking place, and he said, don’t need to look, I want to go out.

(if u still don’t get it, he’s saying “I am going to drive YOUR car out.”)

Hello, you say want to drive means you can drive is it?? Do you know what the fucking hell it means with the word UNDERAGE??

And do you know what it means by PERMISSION????


She’s on your side, but that doesn’t mean I can let you do illegal things, although she permits. This is MY car u talking about. (YOU SEE, told you I’m left out even at home).

But luckily, my uncle was with me in the car and he said NO before I do.

Supposed to come back on Tuesday after the major change of plan(My parents came KL la…), but then my grandma’s che da pao appointment cancelled so plan change again. Going back on Sunday. Then, suddenly, che da pao plan is on, and Badminton Finals is on that night, and I didn’t want to drive in the dark for 3 freaking hours, and also I’m so lazy to start packing, and since Badminton Finals is on that night itself and I didn’t want to miss it, so I decided to come back on Monday morning.

Shiet, like tien play me like that.

It started raining after I left the house. Wth….

And it rained all the way, damn heavy till cant see de jalan…

Lucky no flood or anything lorrr…

22/23 Aug 08

Tuesday, 12 August 2008


tze needs to think abt her future..
might not be doing psychology anymore,
except maybe if some miracle happens...

miracle as in i scored quite High TER,
then i got a place and a scholarship overseas,
then that is dream come true.

or else, i may waste one whole year thinking and then doing something i think i have interest in, but i do not..

life is hard wtf

Friday, 8 August 2008

graduated from P

Hey, I am now a full license holder.

i know i am one of the latest, but then, NO MORE P!!!

i searched far and wide, high and low for a JPJ office here in Selangor...
asked here and there for directions, but no one knows how to get there...

Aug 7, i said, haiya, die die also i have to do tomorrow...i want my license have 08.08.2008
Aug 8, my uncle brought me there, during my two hours break in the morning...

Everything done less than 10 minutes, including waiting for my turn..

on the way there, my uncle was saying, "i'm sure tonight u will take down the P sticker edi..dont take down la..if u put P people will siam u one, dun need u siam people"


Anyway, here's the pics


No "P"

this is how i look like after i renewed my license =)

in the evening, after my tuition class, we walked all the way to the other end of ss15 to buy 4D..
lol..tak kena pun..sia sia we walk so far..walaoeh..know earlier i'll just drive there..

Wednesday, 6 August 2008

Charity Carnival

syn came over the other day for Taylor's Give Back Charity Carnival...
she kinda waited for me for one whole hour and then we walked around,
nothing much to do, then send her back to her home.

i was the cashier!!

our class sold curry mee and cabonara and some games.. =)

there's more pics but i have no time to resize..

anyway, it was packed with ppl on that day..
when we're leaving for synn's house, we saw capoeira..
looks interesting..
hmmmph =)

*shall continue some other day*

totally random

when laaaa....

can the money drop from sky????


I need to:


Take Control of my LIFE.

Instead of letting things taking control of my life, I HAVE to DECIDE.


Voice out.

Speak. Talk. Open the mouth.



One of my weaknesses is that I do not change although I know it is time to change. Even people who doesn’t know me, they think that I do not really accept changes.

So, change.

Before its too late.


Know that nothing will last forever.

The dream that night taught me that, sweet moments only last for FIVE seconds, then its back to reality.



“Aim for the stars”, some people say.

“When you believe you can, then you can”

But, I have no faith that I can… =(

Tuesday, 5 August 2008

i really dont know

tze's standard answer:

I don't know....

for the last five minutes i've been talking to you, your keep saying i dont know..
* can u just decide?? and stop saying i dont know??

Saturday, 2 August 2008



tze got a new email

i think i just got myself into trouble...
sighh me and my big mouth and no-think-before-i-talk...

i told my uncle i would be coming back late next week as i will be in the library..
he asked why go library...
so i said i cant study at home..
there's TV..*doink*
then he ask me to lock myself in the room...

so i said its useless cause there's bed...
and i can even sleep without a bed...
*soon, i would be sleeping in the library again*

then when we came home,
he ask me what i wanna do..
so i said TV..
and he gave me this weird expression like..
"tv again, why u not studying, u suppose to study right, what have u been doing whole entire day at home ahh?? tv right??"

and so, this is how i land myself in trouble with my big big mouth..

anyway, i doubt i would be staying in the library at all...
its either i would be at dinner till library closes,
or i would just come home early...



different 'tests'

1. What does you hand writing says about you?
What Your Handwriting Says About You
You are sometimes a very energetic person, but you are sometimes quite lethargic. You're moody, prone to ups and downs, and you don't have a lot of endurance.You range from very outgoing to very shy. You are a shapeshifter who is very versatile. You adapt well, and you look at things from many angles.You are very detail oriented and meticulous. You are a careful thinker and a true intellectual.You don't a lot of space, and you prefer to spend time with others. You are a little nosy and intrusive. You sometimes don't give people enough space.You are somewhat traditional, but you are also open to change. You listen to your head and your heart.You are a good communicator. You work hard to get your ideas across effectively.

2. Are you happy?

My result is: Bliss

This is dangerous, you are in a potentially good place. Is there something you are avoiding? Are you okay?

"Know thyself"

3. Do people secretly hate you?

My result is: Self Doubter

The question is-do you really even like yourself? Other people would like to get to know you more but your lack of self confidence can get in the way. Get out there!

4. What rose colour are you?
Tze is a Yellow Rose!

Tze is like the sun - warm and caring. You are a joyful and fun person and love to be around your friend

5. How creative are you?

My result is: The bucket of paint

The bucket of paint represents the will within you. You want to be creative but that just doesn't seem to cut it. You might love color but you might aswell drown in the bucket.

6. What kind of smile do you have?
I have a Friendly Smile
You love everyone and they love you back. You are a true people person and have the smile to show it. Your smile, as well as your personality, is genuine and sweet, open and cheerful. You will often find yourself being confided in and you will never be short of friends. You are also quite optimistic and have a great sense of humor and a caring personality.

7. How will you die?

Old age
You're pretty chilled out! You're going to live a long, happy life, maybe even retire to an island. Either way, you'll be able to enjoy winters with loved ones. You'll die asleep on a ferris wheel.

8. What kind of Bride will you be?
You Will Be an Unconventional Bride!
You're probably the type of girl who never considered getting married - until you met *him* You're not a big fan of white dresses, church weddings, or cheesy DJ's That's okay - you'll do it your way... whether that means a Vegas wedding or guys as bridesmen While you may not toss the bouquet (or have anyone to toss it to), it will still be the most romantic day of your life!

9. What type of heart do you have?

My result is: Careful Heart

You take your time and do not fall in love easily.You give 50% in a relationship, and expect 50% in return.You like to handle your problems directly and immediately. You are alright with not seeing him/her so often. you expect the person to change for you.You measure your desire to whomever you love by the amount of desire he shows you.You fall out of love easily.

10. What mood are you most in?

My result is: confused

you have troubles paying attention to things and usually have no clue whats going on in life :S