rant. nonsense.

i am not well. not at all. 

im so tired. 

is this the life i want to live? why am i torturing myself like this? there must be a better way for selfharm.

i am so tired. tired with every single piece of shits, tired of everyone, tired of every single fucking thing. im so tired of the world. i need to take a break. i need to be away from people, from all the energy draining stuff and be alone. to have time for myself, that would be an impossible dream. 

there if no where to go, even if i can get a break. 

not like i get the luxury of having a break. 

there is no such luxury. there will be no fucking time for yourself. not to mention time for family, friends.. 

im so tired that i get depressed. i need time to cry, but i cant find time. all these pent up emotions. this is no fun at all. i dont even have time to get depressed fml. 

what the fuck am i doing. 

"public holidays are given and its a right for everyone. why do we need to earn it?" 

i cant think straight now. 

why do i feel like im suffocating? to the point that i cant breathe. why do things have to be so complicaated. damnnnnn