12th July 2016

I'm so fking stressed up now. I need to vent my frustrations but there is no where to do it. There is no one I can talk to. No one actually understands. :(

So stressed up that I was actually holding back my tears in the bank, in the car, in my work. I just need a release. AH! 

Life is so shitty. 

I am also angry at myself. I said I want to leave this place, but I'm still here. Because I'm doing nothing to change it. 

ME and MY procrastination. 

ME and MY fears of the unknown. 

What if I quit and there is no job?

All these uncertainties. I cant do this anymore. 

I am sick, I am tired, I just want to go somewhere and hide. 

:(