1st of january 2007

i actually wrote this early this month...

new year new begining. this new year opens a whole new chapter in my life. leaving sitiawan to continue my studies in a small island...well, i'm gonna be here for at least a year.. sob sob.. frens leave each other.. some went for NS, some went to work and many went to continue pre u studies. i nvr thought this day wud come so soon tho.. i am so not ready for this.. and now is not even a month after my SPM.. am i dreaming?? am i having nitemare?? i hope i am... but .. reality strikes and i suddenly realise that this is no deram. everything came so fast and i dun really have time to get mentally prepared.. haiz.. time past so fast that i din realise i have already finish spm and its new year already.. what happen?? i was too busy having fun and had no time to really think bout whats around me.. onli a month or so b4 the actual spm day onli i 'kinda study'.. life is suppose to be lik hell that time.. but.. i was stil having fun.. regret? not really.. cause i dun think of it much.. now, i onli hope that watever crap i've written for my exam will give me at least C.. all i need is just 5 credits..

xmas 06 is the most borinf xmas in my life.. its just like a normal day .. as tho nothing has happen..i did not even get presents...sigh...watever

31st jan 07

life in coll really suck.. when i was there the first day, its like ... i dunno how to describe.. like when u went to primary skol in std 1.. u stand there alone and know no one at ALL..seriouly.. i really think that way.. i went there .. and dinknow any one... until this nice gurl say hi to me.. we bcame frens .. but she's not studying the same thing wit me so we seperated after that and now i even forgot how she look like and whats her name...the feeling and thought of being alone in an unknownplace is realy scary.. but now, after 3 or 4 weeks there.. im now ok wit it.. it really suck for the first two weeks.. but now.. i guess i just have to go wit the flow.. trying to fit in..getting to know more ppl from my class.. in fact, i have a few frens now..thank God!! nothing much to be said..now, i really miss sitiawan.. i wanna go back..the only way i make myself not homesick is by thinking bout all the stupid bird noise they make in sitiawan...those stupid idiots who thinks of only money never cared bout other ppl who;s staying there 24/7...babi wan...i think my frens who is in sitiawan and who came to my house b4 know what am i talking...lol... crap...

have lots more to say.. but i just dun have any idea how to put it into words... haiz... 18 more days to go for cny.. and thats when i go bck sitiawan..haiz...

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after a month of no internet ..finally, today i get to online again... yea yea.... =p... hehehe... ntg much to say... too long no blog...and dunno wat to say... lol...