its confirmed!

im going to taylors this year.
doing the same thing i did last year.

haiz.
wasted one whole year in disted.
only when i went to taylors, they told me how the marks were calculated.
ish...
never knew that...


i onli know that i have to pass 3 subjects before my ter can be calculated the very morning i went to see my result..

ish.....

wrote this on 18th dec

4.37am.
I cannot sleep. I cannot go out. I am so bored right now. I am damn awake in fact. Trying to type this thing in the dark. I cant turn on the lights. They’ll know I am awake and starts questioning me. Haiz. I turn on the radio. All the songs I heard is like sad songs. Right. That’s what I need now. chit. Haven been writing my diary for quite some time. life here is the same everyday. Nothing to talk about also. Haiz. Back to the topic. I am so damn bored right now. I think some people are already in the ladang getah to menoreh getah lor. Dead. So hungry right now.
Since I am so boring and I cannot sleep plus it’s a few hours away from sunrise, I’ll just talk crap lor.
Wake up at bout 9 something yesterday morning. Saw message from cyn…. She said she called the coll. So I also call for fun la. Although I already know what they’re going to say. Lol. And then I went down to bath and watch tv. Went to fetch bc and then to ks house lor. To online and check whether the results were out or not. Supposed to be going for bowling at 1. but then some people don’t want to go. So cancel lor. Had instant noodles for lunch.. first time in a few months. I think. And then went to sleep like a pig. Then went out for dinner with them. Hahah. West connection not open. Walaoeh. Drive all the way there but its not open. So we ended up in the steakhouse near the already closed klg. Walaoeh.. ks say they serve their food very slow de..but I don’t expect to wait for like one hour for my spaghetti lor. Dinner was served at like 9.30pm. omg. Whatever…drop by mcd for a sundae before coming back. So sien lor..
And now I am here writing this crap. If anyone bother to read lor.
Oh ya. My plan isn’t working at all. It wasn’t even started yet.
Another thing. I might be going back to studies in less than two weeks time(assuming I had enough TER to continue lar), minus the weekends. Fuck. I cannot decide. January or May? January will be a lil too early. May will be a lil late. But then… may is like just nice lei………smack my head pls someone……
Ayam sudah pun lama berkokok. Tapi matahari belum lagi terbit. Saya masih belum lagi tidur.
Why?
These few days hor…………
I day dream a lot lor………………………
During the wedding dinner, I drop the food I was biting cause I day dream…….i think...
When I was eating pizza, I dropped the knife……cause I was thinking..
And many more other incident. Lol.
But the weird thing is, I don’t know what the hell was I thinking.
Ish………….
Getting more blur day by day lor. …
Change topic.
Rynn concert was ok lor. Nice nice… I like cause it’s a small concert. Not like those big concert where some people have to stand. Hahaha. I was dead tired when I went to the concert… alright. I wasn’t excited for the concert. I think the main purpose I went is to see jj. Lol. Crap. Hahah.. concert is like one or two weeks ago. So don’t wanna talk much about that……..
5.06am

xmas is coming reallll soooon

Christmas is just round the corner. I just got my results a few days ago. And it was not ok. Whatever. Earlier this month, I cant wait for Christmas to come. But then, the Christmas spirit was lost somewhere. It feels like just any normal day. Christmas is so far still. It just don feels like Christmas is 2 days away. Haiz. My ffk level increases this few days. Hahah.
It just don’t feel like Christmas.

Food for carollers was only bought today and tomorrow morning. No exact plan as to what to do yet. Christmas tree is no where to be seen. And forget bout my plan to decorate the tree outside the house. And the candles plan. Lol.

Remind me to have a Christmas party when I have my own place.
Someone is only coming back during Christmas itself. Can you believe it? Its like.. So wrong. Haiz……. Maybe my definition of Christmas is different from the others.

And today was the “Tang Yuan” festival. I thought tang yuan means reunion. But then, what is this festival for is no one is back yet? So meaningless lor. Where got reunion??
Back to my results. Due to the ‘excellent’ result I got, now I have to think about my next step. What the hell should I do next year. Mass comm? Canadian matriculation thing? Hospitality management sort of thing? WHAT?

I’ve been given like a few days to think. I really don’t know what am I supposed to do. Repeating SAM was never an option for me. Lol. I’m thinking maybe I could start doing diploma courses. Cause there’s a direction. Doing pre-u again, like no direction lor. I will be clueless and aimless again and end up with an ‘excellent’ result again. Family were very supportive. Looking up and down for colleges and courses that would suit me. And I’m home everyday and doing nothing meaningful. Whenever they asks me about my plan, what I want to study, what I am interested in, I really don’t know.

Its not that I purposely answer I don’t know what I want to do. I really don’t. haiz. Can someone give me some direction? Advise? Clue? Please??

Don’t ask me about my ambition. I had too many but they never last. Let’s see…
I wanted to be a lawyer cause I want to sue whoever that I don’t like. Lol. I wanted to be a teacher because teachers have so many holidays. I wanted to be a doctor because everyone wants to be a doctor back then. hmm…. What else… can’t think now. All those were my childish ambitions. Never gave a serious thought at all. Ha ha. And now I’m in trouble.

Lastly, forgive me for my extremely broken English. Lol.

yo. finally got chance to online. cant online since i came back to stw.
came to the cc that day. no electric. chit.
lol. sleep and tv everyday.
i haven bang my head on the wall yet!
hahah..

nothing to post.
too busy watching tv...
lol... as if..