Saturday, 22 December 2007

xmas is coming reallll soooon

Christmas is just round the corner. I just got my results a few days ago. And it was not ok. Whatever. Earlier this month, I cant wait for Christmas to come. But then, the Christmas spirit was lost somewhere. It feels like just any normal day. Christmas is so far still. It just don feels like Christmas is 2 days away. Haiz. My ffk level increases this few days. Hahah.
It just don’t feel like Christmas.

Food for carollers was only bought today and tomorrow morning. No exact plan as to what to do yet. Christmas tree is no where to be seen. And forget bout my plan to decorate the tree outside the house. And the candles plan. Lol.

Remind me to have a Christmas party when I have my own place.
Someone is only coming back during Christmas itself. Can you believe it? Its like.. So wrong. Haiz……. Maybe my definition of Christmas is different from the others.

And today was the “Tang Yuan” festival. I thought tang yuan means reunion. But then, what is this festival for is no one is back yet? So meaningless lor. Where got reunion??
Back to my results. Due to the ‘excellent’ result I got, now I have to think about my next step. What the hell should I do next year. Mass comm? Canadian matriculation thing? Hospitality management sort of thing? WHAT?

I’ve been given like a few days to think. I really don’t know what am I supposed to do. Repeating SAM was never an option for me. Lol. I’m thinking maybe I could start doing diploma courses. Cause there’s a direction. Doing pre-u again, like no direction lor. I will be clueless and aimless again and end up with an ‘excellent’ result again. Family were very supportive. Looking up and down for colleges and courses that would suit me. And I’m home everyday and doing nothing meaningful. Whenever they asks me about my plan, what I want to study, what I am interested in, I really don’t know.

Its not that I purposely answer I don’t know what I want to do. I really don’t. haiz. Can someone give me some direction? Advise? Clue? Please??

Don’t ask me about my ambition. I had too many but they never last. Let’s see…
I wanted to be a lawyer cause I want to sue whoever that I don’t like. Lol. I wanted to be a teacher because teachers have so many holidays. I wanted to be a doctor because everyone wants to be a doctor back then. hmm…. What else… can’t think now. All those were my childish ambitions. Never gave a serious thought at all. Ha ha. And now I’m in trouble.

Lastly, forgive me for my extremely broken English. Lol.

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