i, i, i

im thinking: omg how can anyone be so damn lala?

im feeling: damn soi, damn memalukan, damn bored
-early in the morn, i tot wanna put my stuff in the lib, end up kena scold because its not 7.30am yet
-then i got back my english and i FAILED. yes, i FAILED english...
-right after taht was accounts..got back paper again..lol..needless to say, FAILED..
-after class, went to pangsapuri to get back my stuff..nothing soi happen..
-then i was outside library talking and stuffing everything in the blue paper file, then suddenly, it fell over the railing..memalukan nia..i got back my file, but a few papers were still dere and i tak sampai..damnit..people who notice was looking..lucky sum fren came to help..lol
-then i balik, uncle fetch me, so i ma ask him to turn to mcd there lo..walaoeh...tengah jam there dat time, damnit, someone reversed and didn't see my car so she knocked into mine..now my car got another new dent..sighhh..as if my car is not horrible enough lorrrrr...

i am now: damn bored lor...
-ntg to do and thinking of what to do tomorrow

i like: watching those people in parliament "debating" and uttering words that are not very "right"
-lol

i cant stop: people from talking..
-mouth is theirs

i wnat to: SLEEP

i ... haven driven for 3 days ... lol ...

i didnt present for malay today =)




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i say, subway is gonna open opposite college..
he say, so?
i say, if subway open i sure declare bankrap edi...
he say, why??
i say, expensive...
he say, if u go eat u bankrap, if u dun go then subway declare bankrap...
me, LOL


before that, when we're eating...

he say, did the bank call u today?? they're supposed to confirm a few tings with u...
i say, yes they did but i was sleeping...
he say, what??? u sleeping???
i say, yes i was sleeping...
he say, u sleep in the library isit???
i say, yes... (lol, i slept in esl, not library) i called back, but the number busy so its not my fault...
he say, aiyah then like that delay another day again...
me think, another day??? no la... two more days.. because thursday is a public holiday hehehe...
he cepat cepat called the bank, i was laughing my heart out...
i then say, walaoeh... u really desperate is it?? wait one more day can die meh??
he say, of course la...i dont want to send u to college anymore... so tiring
me : swt

i am damn bored la

stupid la..

should i go malay later?

have a presentation that i had not yet prepared at all...

how?

firsts

today my dears, is a special day..
why??

its my FIRST TIME reaching college at 6.45am, when the sky is still dark...
its my FIRST time using a public transport..
its my FIRST time having TWO burgers at once...
its my FIRST time signing on so many papers and documents...
its my FIRST time, seeing someone decide to buy something so expensive in just a few minutes...
its my FIRST time getting a WHITE jacket(i wanted black and my purpose for jacket hunting is for a black one, but i end up with white)...
its my FIRST time getting more than 10 for legals...
its my FIRST time i deactivated an ATM card after the bank activated it within 24 hours(too smart edi..hehe)

it marks so many FIRSTs today..




L
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0
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the accident

i went out for movies and some grocery shopping today with my uncle, and we got into a car accident on our way back...

everything happens so fast, & no i didnt scream..

i know, he was kinda fast, and then, lose control, and the car spins, crashed, explosion..
i dunt know why, but i didnt dare to look left or right...
just stare straight to the front..
i was abt to close my eyes to sleep when it happens...


moments later, another minor accident happened at the vry same place...

then a few more minutes later, another one happens at the very sme place again.. this time, they werent that lucky...kelisa was crushed, protons got people stuck inside..

we were lucky, nothing happens to us, but then, the car's damage is quite bad..

i learnt a lesson : never drive fast when it rains.. now i see why...

i was a lil shaky @ first...

pics and more updates whenim free


v: you know u very weird anot??
me: why?
v: people accident shocked like hell edi..u still so semangat take picture...
me: har>>


L: if we go fila warehouse ma mou si lorrr
me: haizz...

this is how the car looks like after it happens...

thats the spot

moments later


another proton came..sigh...

lol

yesterday : you were there for me

today : we pretend not to know each other

tomorrow : we're total strangers

sigh

movies

walaoehh..this is STILL SHOWING in the cinema leii..
DVD also out edi lei..(if im not mistaken laa)

anyone interested to watch this movie wid me??
it's in bahasa indonesia, so i know none of my friends wud actually watch this in the cinema with me..
=(

this loooooks interesting..
anything to do with street racing sounds interesting to me...
hehehe


i wan watch this too!!
no time leii.. ishhh


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me going for forbidden kingdom tml.
bye bye econs..

ini hari, saya bangun pukul 8.30am bcux sum idiot called me and out down the phone when i answered it..
8.30am is super early ok..
because i slept at 2.30am..
and also, most importntly, its a SATURDAY!
so 8.30am is freaking early..
ishh...geram...anyway, i went back to sleep at 2pm and wake up onli at 5.45pm,
to sidai baju...
so, my day begin at 6pm today..
went out to makan dinner, and then, TV got nothing, so i am here to look for movies and also to re-type all the links...
deleted everything from the sidebar when i changed the template..
sighhh...

in conclusion,
i have yet to touch econs
& now that i have a new story book,
susah laaa...
its either the book or econs..
LOL



ps: i wish i had more time..
i want to read..
i miss reading..
its been a while since i read a book..
sighhh

the last book i read: Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows
see, it's ages ago...

sighhh...

i feel i am so free lorrr..
so damn free lei...
print screen the map, then add details...
too free e...
& how come ahh...
not fair la...
got taman hijau got taman singa but dont have taman kg. koh
ishhh...

pics

this kid was loooooking and staring @ us de moment we were dere...

tze did this with mentos wrapper...
yeah i was too bored..
stoopid phone cam quality..
so badddd...

this is what people do when they're bored..
hehehe

and this toooo... me likey the snow man
and de hantu

the advantages or kegunaan of graphic calculator to me....
someone: dont waste my battery can anot??
another someone: :x

food hunting after class...
5 pisang goreng @ rm1
8 or 9 or 10 pisang goreng @ rm1
air kelapa @ rm2.50
2 indian curry puff @ rm0.80
2 jagungs @ rm2.80
i tink dats all...
i will never eat pisang goreng anymore till i get back to stw...

was in kim gary, waiting to order and also for food, and i was so bored, i didnt know why i did this...
i want.. discount, discount, and discount..
hehehe..
but students got 10% discount...
i forgot...

the fries that i ordered but never eat...
i didnt know it came in such a big plate...
but then, end up ta pao and omg... i had it when i get back...
alrd not crispy..
sighhhh

i find it cute

crap post

Guess where am I??

Guess laaaa…..

Hehhehe… I’m in SUNWAY UnI Coll..

Yeah, u didn’t read wrongly, I am really here...

And yeah, at this time of the day, in shorts…

Hehehe…

the story:: i was happily watching news(yeah rite) and then i called sp and asked something crap... and then, in no time, i was outside her condo edi... hehehe...

hehehe... happy lei... so long din see her edi...

and for the very first time, im here... lol... dun have chance to study here, but still can "break-in"... hahhah... crap la wei...

random thoughts

i tried...
& i think i failed...
I'm giving up...
sighhh...

3hrz

I have THREE freaking hours break today...
The best thing --> it’s THREE HOURS IN A ROW...

for that 3 freaking hours,

i went to makan (at caf...)

i went to library (to kill time)

i went to see sim ( to meet up wit her and see her do wuliao stuff)

i went to bank (stupid)

i went to office (damn)

and now im in the web(smelly)

and now i remember,

i have legals to study(lol)

::Course Entry Requirements/Prerequisites

None. One TEE mathematics subject desirable.::

*s-i-g-h*

asshole

i am tired. very tired. imagine three hours of accounting in one day. one early in the morning, then late in the afternoon and another one shortly after that. im going crazy. i slept for only 3 hours last night. i cant sleep i dont know why.

now, i have to do my english, which i volunteered to do cause they have their moral test tml. dun blame me if i give shitty piece of work ok. my english damn lan wan ok.

and then, i have to look for legals cpt thing.

and lastly, i am very very not in the mood.

i dont understand why the family treat me like a 3 year old.
i am OLD enough to know whats going on.
i am old enough to have the RIGHT to know.
i am not a small kid anymore.
dont need to hide things like that from me.

i am angry because i am the very last person to know.
how come mum is the first person to know, but didnt even bother to msg and tell me?
i am part of the family and part of the house also ok.
there's possibility my things may be missing ok.

the house got
broken into
& i am the
FUCKING
last person to
know about it.

approx7.30pm

me call L...

me: why u call ?? cuming back dinner ant?? im in 99, anything u want me to buy?
L: im on the way back to sitiawan edi..
me: har?? why u going back??
L: what why???
me: why la u go back... what happen???
L: mama house last night kena burglar...
me: HAR?? what *thinking that he might be kidding*
L: people break into the house last night la
me: u serious ah??? really anot one>??
L: really la im now on my way back alrd...

im alrd out of 99 that time, in the car heading home...called mum...

me: *talk something crap* im using this number this week..
mum: har?? how come u got this number one>??
me: got la.. very long ago also i got edi
mum: where are u now??
me: outside de house i just reach onli
mum: why so late??
me: i got de tution ma today.. and i go library
*bla bla bla*
me: u know ma ma house kena break in anot??
mum: i know ahhh.. i am the FIRST one to know...*walaoeh.. she sound so bangga to be de first one ok*
me: means im the last one to know la...
mum: YES.. *walaoeh... still dare to say so loud yes worrrrr*
me: *crap crap crap.. k bye...

start tak syok liao... how come i am the last one to know?? why no one ever bother to tell me???

go in the house, V lying there...

me: *stare at him....* big cle going back sitiawan
V: early also he went back edi lo...
me: swt
V: this weekend help ma ma clean house
me: har?? why.??? *jual mahal.. still dun wan tell me story...*
V: clean la why...

me go upstairs to my room, call grandma...

me: what happen???? zhe me yang??? hai hao ma???
MAMA: what u mean>>>?? what do u know???
me: haiya no need to hide anymore la.. i know already la....things like that also want to hide from me.. PLEASE LAR...
MAMA: who tell u one??
me: haiya.. please la ok... like that also wan to hide from me... come on larrr...
MAMA: just like that lo...nothing much....
*continues with the details...*
me: my room how?? anything missing??
MAMA: nothing la.. just de drawer let the fella rosakkan onli
me: oh like that ah *wtf...babi that fella*

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to the smart ass who broke into
my grandparent's house,
and most importantly,
my ROOM,

FUCK U!

may u rot in hell,
no ass, damn u,
i hope u kena hit by lightning
everytime u go out,
pasu bunga drop from sky,
hit ur head,
u become gong gong,
so u cant break into anyone's house anymore..

ps: if anything from my room go missing..
i will make sure u tak de zuriat...
no matter what,
i will curse u till u have the worst luck in this lifetime.

i wont curse for u to die.
i want u to suffer.
suffer for the rest of ur life.
what the fucking hell u idiot.

u are lucky my grandparents are unharm.
if not, i cincang u to a million pieces,
feed u to stray dogs in the market.

damn u fucking idiot.

go look for a job la babi lu..

if u are a illegal immigrant, si beh babi lu, balik lu punya negara la.

sial punya orang...

neh de....

i bet u're a drug addict...
because normal burglar are smart
not like u.. idiot...

so expensive de watch display there u dun wan take..
go find money oni...

babi lu...
if my blue mickey mouse wallet goes missing,
u jaga jaga sikit la...

i will curse u...
drink water also choke but dont die
eat nice food also taste like shit
every morning walk out is either u will step on cow dung,
or u will fall into the smelly longkang...

mr. burglar,
everything in blue is for u..

damn u..
asshole

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@ 10.50pm, aunty called and ask me not to worry..

me: hello
E: hye hows coll??
me: like that lorr.. as usual...
E: have u called home??
me: yes..just now
E: mama and kung kung is ok... so dun worry yah...
me: im not worried...
E: u not worried?? *her response so cute lo*
me: i know they're ok so i dun worry la...
E: study hard ya..
bla bla bla...


*i never know my aunty is so cute..kejap ask ppl dun worry.. kejap response like...its so wrong not to worry..hehehhe*

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so tze ching

she is revising for her up-coming finals.stresss.

he went for golf.early in the morning.

she was watching badminton.kkk lose sigh.

he is back to his hometown.food.

she might be enjoying her astro on demand.universiti goyang kaki.

he is taking care of his mother.since yesterday.

she might be fantasizing about whatever she fantasizes about. lol.

he might be eating. everyone needs to eat wat.

she was in church for gathering.

he went from Shah Alam to Klang to Sunway, back to Klang and then back to Sunway again to change his car tayar. lol.

i am supposed to...
revise for my accounting common test,
finish up the econs homework(S),
read up all the NINE cases for legals,
look for articles for legals,
look for more information for my ESL final report,
think of a way to convince my mum (the holiday and the concert),
think of ways to save money(grandpa's birthday coming),
look for information on National Service for my MAlay report,
read pindah,
read wi & william,
read arjuna hati,
tuition homework,
go shopping...


i am.. doing nothing..


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haiz..... my mid year time table..
sad sad...
i know the results are important...
dun need to remind me.. sighh

hehehe.. this marks the VERY FIRST TIME i cook fried rice..
hahah..
turns out, the ingredients are more than the rice..
lol...
ingredients: two small onion, one egg, two hotdog, one (the meat they use for ramly burger) ehehe


sp: look so little one
tc: got more la.. this one i put in the plate e maa...


bc: look like the ingredients are more than the rice
tc: heheh yeah!!

tak sedap la te rice.. yuck...

fu yoh!!

finally finished my ESL draft...

damnit

Shiet… how can I be sooooo STOOOOPID??

Idiot!

can u believe if i say i sweat till i get headache??
damn la... this really happen to me...
haizzz....
and i feel like im so good at spending money..
who on earth would reload twice in three days for a prepaid number that she wouldnt even use?

and, who on earth would be so so lazy, she left her keys in the car everyday...
and the keys just ko..
lol.. have to change battery in like 4 mths....
ishhhhhhhhhh....

and.... who on earth would dig for a letter in the mail box for half an hour..
only to find a slimy yucky earthwork stucked on the other side of the wet wet letter...
and what the hell... the letter, which she assume is important, turns out to be an catalog..
useless...cei...

and who on earth will be so lazy to go out when she's home and then rather eat unhealthy food?

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh........



i have headache.
i have esl draft.
i have econs homework.
i want my bed.
i wanna sleep.
i will sleep now.
i know its early.
but who cares.

headache dai sai ok..

hehehe...

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v: u makan edi anot??
me: yes
v: what u makan today??
me: maggi and roti
v: why u dun wan go out makan??
me: lazy laaaa
v: wat la u... *speechless*

**

i dont understand some people... i feel stressed... partly because of coll work.. but then, when i think of that certain someone, i feel this HUGE burden..... dear god, help me... =( my heart wants to cry.. but then, i cant because that certain some one is not worth my tears.. lol...seriously, there is no one on earth that does things that certain someone do...haihhhh...
pressure building up, tension betulll...but those pressure not from coll work..sighhh...i shud be worrying bout coll work and my studies.. not that certain someone..yucks

wheeeeeee......

Wheee….!!! Tze passed her LEgals... Omg…yeah u didn’t read wrongly.. She seriously PASSED her legals…

I am happy because:

1. I finally passed… WHEEEEE!!!

2. FREEEEEEE ICE CREAM… hehehhe

3. ICE KACANG!!!!!! Yum yum… but it’s not free tho…

Next stop, 70% discount of yummy delicious steamboat (as what bc claims), IF I GET 15 and above for my extended response...sighh... its another mission impossible..

but 10 is seriously very low.. altho its a pass...

Ok ok .. I know what some people are thinking…

“TZE ahhh…. Food food food…. Nothing beats food right??”

Lol u are so wrong.. the food is… only a motivation… hahhaha…

ps: tze is not obses about food ok... hehehe


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kena prank today.. so cham lei... u know who u are.. ishhhhhhhhhhhhh

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sia sia i teramat sangat happy... ishhhh...

h34v3n or h311?

I grow up with people telling me that good people go to heaven when they die and bad people go to hell. Heaven is a very very beautiful place (u have everything up in heaven, nice people, nice place, roses, rainbows, whatever nice pretty things etc), where as, hell, on the other hand, is a place where they put bad people in hot boiling cooking oil and stuff like that.

This doesn’t make me an angel tho…

But the question is, if bad people go to hell and good people go to heaven,

Where does Robin Hood go when he dies?

You see, he steals from the rich to help the poor…

Stealing is a sin, but helping the poor, isn’t it a right thing to do??

So, where would he end up??

And people who… before they die, they did a very sinful thing, but then, they don’t do it for themselves… they do it because they wanted to save another person, maybe saving their lives or something… so, where would these people go when they die??

I don’t know why but this question suddenly pops up in my mind when I was day dreaming, in the midst of struggling to study. LOL…

And what happen to those people who tell a lot of lies?

White lie is still a lie maaa….

Em… example, parents lie a lot to their children… is white lie a sin too???

And, those people who backstab another person…??

Maybe the person doesn’t want to backstab too… but due to certain unavoidable reasons… they have to do it…

It’s a form of sin too… right???

So, do sinners really go to hell???

Stealing money is a sin,

Back stabbing is also a sin,

Committing a crime is also a sin…

Example: Mr. H have to rob the gold shop because he has lost his job and he desperately needs money to save his daughter’s life. So, he commits a crime, but if he was given a choice, he wouldn’t want to…

Okay… off topic…

Back to the question….

WHERE WILL ROBIN HOOD go when he dies??

HEAVEN or HELL???

stupid stupid stupid

i cant help but think...

accounting is the STUPIDEST thing on earth

this is some of the very few chinese words i know how to read

我 很 想 要 说 … 我 真 的 很 … B O R I N G …

H E H E H E Z H A D A O L E I I I I I

芷清 ☺

i am bored any have nothing to do tonight. cant online till late. gonna off after this. because i have no wireless. ish ish ish.

today, after the tuition, everyone no reply me, and i dunno why, i go 'explore' sunway.. so i know how to go sp's place edi.. and where is the coll edi... almost freaked out cause i wasnt sure how to get out of there..i really dunno what makes me drive there lorrr... ishhh

come back baru got people reply me... ish... somemore say... just now i eating, so i lazy reply u.. swt

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hehehe... lol...



boriiiinnnggggg

latest update:

i MIGHT FAIL my English presentation. =(


just went thru the oral presentation just now. omg im not scared im not nervous but wtf, im blank. i spend half the time staring at her. and my points, omg. fear fear fear.
thats all i talked about.. and i got a pretty broad topic kay!!... ishhhhh....

i hate super long breaks

i have FUCKING FOUR HOURS BREAK LEIII

break from 11am till 3pm leiiii...

feels so much like im back to disted once more..

omgossshhhh.....

what the hell la wei..

so many hours free..

i wanna go crazy edi laaaa....

malay was from 12pm to 1pm

but then.. project work today..FREEEEEE

english from 2pm to 3pm...

oral presentation thing going on...so, im FREEEE....

this leave me, FOUR STRAIGHT HOURS FREE LEI...

and haven include de break from 9am to 10am leii...

ishhh... gerammm ohhhhh....

why laaa.... wanna put LS as last class....

if not, i can go back and sleep edi la..

dun need to sleep in lib...

so suffering leiiiii

ishhhh



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what a depressing day...
went to lib but no more comp to use,
then go the web, server down pulak,
back to the library, then to malay class,
waited outside..
so damn hot u know wtf,
just to hear the lec say,
i'll mark ur attendance in the library.damn.
it rained again(ishh,..lagilahhh depressing)

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oh my gosh, i dreamt of him last night leiii...
strange but i i did dream of him..
omg
lol. hahahha

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mana satu lebih cantik for my laptop background???

this i got in the mail

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die.

commontestpluschocmudhahahha

had the evaluation thingy today in coll.. needless to say, my least fav lec wud be ___. lol

OKAY! legals was ermmm... disappointing

compared to the first common test, i know to answer more questions. but then, some question, i dont even understand what it says lorr.. so i end up writing CRAP. and then, i remember, there's this one question, i know the answer but WTF, i dont know how to write it out..

how more DUMB can i be?? sighhh

after legals, laparr sgt la.. so we went to kopitiam.. heheh..
ikmal joined us lorr..
so 3 of us went to kopitiam..

i had the NASI LEMAK dere.. omg yummy...

and then, after makan, we were talking on how irresistible are the cakes in secret recipe... and someone (i cannot remember who) blurted out, "come, lets go Secret Recipe now"...

what the hell... and they're so tempting leiii

oh my gossshhhhh!!!

Secret Recipe right after i had my LUNCH!

i didnt know they were serious bout going there..

and i end up withhhh,.... CHOC MUD which we shared.. lol..

for some reason, we cant stop laughing( maybe study Legals till crazy edi..heheh)
and then, time to head back to college and do work...
mana tau, they alrd finished the Accounting Project...
so, i end up online a while, before going to the SUPERBORINGPLUSCLUELESS class.

okay, i know how to differenciate all the diff types of whatever, but then, i take a very long time to think leiii...

ishhhhhhh.......

rained super heavy today lei.. wth.. everyday when i balik sure rain wan... walaoeh...

okay lorrr.. i went to teduh at the sell jambu place... outside AC.. talked to de mak cik for a while, before giving up waiting and chao to the car....by the time i sampai car, alrd drenched... look like i feel in a swimming pool or something...hahha

went straight to see the doctor...walaoehhh..this doctor damnnnnn CHUNN....tak sampai 5 mins leiiii...and this marks the first time i see doc alone lei...
doc: u just shower before u came or u were walking in the rain?? me: hehehe.. i was walking in the rain... -__-

this is what happens when i get clueless in exams

my yummy nasi lemak!!!

hehehe secret recipe

u see... so tempting right??

half way..
hehehhe

done! hehhe.. it takes two person to finish one slice..sighhh....

i prayyy *fingers crossed*

dear God, I pray that I can get a Pass in this Legals Common Test. Amen.

i am not very confident...
i study.. but i cant remember..
i know the point but i dont know how to relate...
i know the answer but i dunno how to answer... as in put it into words...



* i have to at least get a 10 !!
1. my marks are affected.
2. FREE ICE CREAM waiting for me if i pass..

=)

sleeeeeeeeeep

i slept only for 3 and the half hours last night! dont ask me what am i doing.. definitely wasnt studying..
seriously, i cant believe i can wake up at 6am sharp today lorr...

as a result from that:
i look super tired in coll today,
i am moody (and getting mooodier),
i cant even sleep when i get back(omg..means im toooooo tired kut),
i cant stop buying things(whatever i see, i grab, and i pay.. luckily, i was in giant, hahha),
i feel dumber than usual,
im gonna have hair fall prob (jen says sleeping late can lead to hair fall tooo)
& i am broke Again...

today baru monday...
and i've just finished this week's allowance..
gonna survive with roti and maggi this whole entire week..

=(

i feel sorry for sp lorrr....
she everyday become my victim of complaints..
ishh..
hehehe
sorry yahhhh.... torture ur ears everyday.... =)

mai latest desktop background. hehe.....

i know la it looks so stupid...

the background black is because im moody...
the love shape is because i dunno how to do other shape...
the line down there is because... there's no other place to put it edi.. hahah

lol....

ya ya i know very very wuliao...

im losing it

question of the day:

WHAT THE FUCKING HELL SHOULD I DO?
I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE...
EVERYTHING IS SO DAMN FUCKING WRONG!

seriously lorrr... i cant take it anymore..

1. he is just too disgusting...
now i finally understand how my big uncle feel..
even I, ME, TZE CHING, couldnt stand him edi..
grandma .. cant help me...
mum .. completely ignores me...
eg. i MMS the disgusting pic to her..
and she called, and only ask whether i eat edi anot??
what the hell...
mum, i AM not having flu,
i am crying.. cant u hear it from my voice??

2. i find that she has problems
SHOULD i HELP MYSELF and leave?
problems as in mentally ill...

3. i feel stressed..
common test, cant finish study, all my fault i know

alll those things..
i have my limit lo...
my patience got limit de...
i dont know how long more i can stand before i really break down..
its getting there...
first 'volcano' has just erupted just now..

omg i so wish i am financially able to support myself.
i want to move out...

why cant they just understand?

(what the hell la weiii.... 'ming ming' the cup[s] belongs to him ok..somemore so loudly blame me for not washing it..fucker..i wash my own cups and plates starting from THREE weeks ago ok...and no matter how desperate i wan to drink, i wont be using THAT kind of cup also lorrrr...u wan uji and see whose cup is that right?? fine....go on la... im so fucking sure it urs lorrrr...and im angry because... even his MOTHER says please to me..omg what is wrong here?? *shakes head* i HAVE to do it because my grandma says PLEASSSSEEEEEE)

FYI: its not the matter of not washing cups ok... im angry because it has been there for TWO WEEKS already. or more. and what the fucking hell.. dah berkulat edi ok..
and the kulat thing, growing more and more day by day...veryyyyyy disgusting ok?


mum: why u sound like taht? u got flu???
me: no la... no flu
mum: then why sound like that??
me: nothing la... just for now onli laaa....(what the hell u shud figure out by now)
mum: what u mean just for now only??
me: haiya nothing laaa...
mum: eat already anot?? eat what??
me: bread laa
mum: why eat bread?? u din buy back??
me: no.. i came back at 1pm today
mum: house got bread ahh? (lol.. obviously got la ok)
me: ya...
mum: what u doing?
me: study la what else can i do
mum: *talks some thing not important.* k la study la bye


(YOU SEEEEEE.... SHE DIDNT EVEN MENTION ABOUT THE MMS I SENT TO HER MOMENTS AGO.. DONT TELL ME SHE COINCIDENTLY CALL ME MOMENTS AFTER I SEND HER MMS ok..)




another topic:
i feel like 'tian' playing with me lor...
why everytime also i face the same prob wan...
and every time is me..
yeah i do have self confidence prob...yeah i am boring..
yeah i dont like to argue with people...
doesnt mean i like to be pushed around ok....