omg i am so gonna kill someone if they change the timetable again lorrrr...
i like this time table edi..cause my class ends at 3pm on wednesdays which means i have time to join whatever club or whatever...and then what the hell they change my time again??? hope not lorrr

-___-

today didnt start really well... alright, i was very early today... i got ready by 6.30am.. got nothing to do so i decided to go to coll early...

i could have, if it wasnt for my uncle's car blocking mine and me 'losing' my keys, which made me searching high and low for it... guess where was it all along?? at the door.. lol...
how stupid am i?
i went into the kitchen, up to my room, below my bed, the dining table, search everywhere and was really panic cause i seriously lost my keys...
big cle came down.. and i told him i lost my keys... he was like.. "there.. ur keys are at the door/..."

what the hel.. zha dao lorrrr...

waste my time nia..
but, the journey to coll was fun.. hehehe

cutting lanes here and dere.. lets hope no police sees that..hahaha

alright, i went to class, walaoeh..thought i went to the wrong class pulak..no ppl de.. malay was stupid.. and boring, and i almost fell asleep in accounting.. omg she's so damn boring.. the way she talk.. omg so fucking boring lorrr.. my eyes really cannot tahan her lorr..omg...

and then it was legals... omg im so fucking nervous...and when its my time to present... omgggggg......i know the answers to the questions he asked me... but what the helllllll... i couldnt answer them...yeah.. i was dumber than usual...there i said it.. and ovrall, it sucked...the presentation suckss.. my part i mean...overall, it was ok because the lec wasnt that fierce like previously..hehehe.. phew.. thankgod..hahah

then, went to buy pendrive with sw..walaoeh... so fucking unfair lorrr.. i bought my 4gb for rm129.. and now, she get her 8gb for just rm120...walaoeh... my 4gb is more expensive than her 8gb leiii.. omg. i should stop buying pendrives lorrr... i got my 1gb for rm 90.. and then, shortly after i got mine, the price drops till rm30-35..walaoehhh.... NOT FAIR OK!!!

then go to her place there.... lepak a while...hehehe... and and.. thank god she got baju my size..hehe...damn hot la wear the formal thing... changed to a more comfy t shirt for a while, then take pics, walk arnd her house, then go back coll... go lib.. hehehe.. rajin leiii.. din eat lunch nei... but go lib do work leiii...hehehe

then it was econs, no one in the class, and once again, i changed back to the more formal baju again... then went downstrs to get the newletter thingy..walaoeh.... so damn hot la kl weather...

and and.. econs was ok.. just that i feel she's going too fast ... my brain cudnt really digest what she taught.....
sighh..

then, esl..omg.... i almost fell asleep when the other grps are presenting... everyone else's presentation was very very long, and my grp was the shortessttt.... sighh...good also..dun need to talk tat much...lol...

then, went to ac with sim, then back to her pangsapuri again to get my books....

=) i think i saw someone today..lol..so action buat tak kenal..lol..



ohh yaa.. my uncle was in the papers today..hehe.. at first i thought which weirdo is that...
turns out to be my uncle..heheh...called grandma to tell her..her son is in the papers...
lazy tell mum...hehehe.. tell her now..

saturday night, sunday morning

dunt have internet when i went back last weekend... too boring edi, so terpaksa write in notepad before i can post it here... lalalla


1:56 AM 3/30/2008

its almost 2am liao and i still dunt want to sleep..sighh.. i am so damn sleepy lorrrr... but then too 'lazy' to even go sleep..dad just came back and he saw me using comp in the dining room.. u know what is the first thing he say?? "here got internet meh?"
walaoeh... i use laptop doesnt mean im online lorrr... it means i am doing my work also lorrr.. what the...

and before that, my grandma make an even more sacarstic remark.. "is he not there anymore?" omg.. how can she say that??????what the hell la weii...

alright, today i onli came back at around 12.30pm..thansk to some irresponsible people.. chit.. know earlier i come back with sp yesterday...cis.. geram betul....

then, heheh.. i called my grandma and complained... heheh.. and then, im on my way home edi..hehehe...smart and evil..lol

ok..the journey is stupid..saw kinda a lot police on the way.. and hor.... damn jammm lor someplaces.. ish....keep taking picture till battery habis..

sampai kg koh nia, terus go makan edi... walaoeh..today... i didnt eat breakfast and lunch.. onli eat the mee at 3 something..eheh..

ok..then i came back, and bc was outside my house edi.. went in to her car n u know what she say?? " why u got rokok smell wan??"
walaoehhhhh...sighh... three hours journey, someone keep smoking, of course got rokok smell larrr...

alright, i bathed and went out for a while... omg the weather so damn hotttt..hehe.. i drive manual and i survived!!hehe...heheh.. grandma say she very sked seeing me drive manual..hehe.. i know why..

then, came back, wait for bc to come again..walao..meanwhile, mum came back and show me my result slip... sighh speechless..

bc came we went to look for d'zire.. lol... so susah lo to find the place.. thanks to maggie lorrr...give us CLUES where the hell is the place.. thought got a lot people pulak.. mana tau.. no people at all..hehe.. the girl was actually frenly lo.. and for the very first time.. i dun feel like uncomfortable going to cut hair by myself leiii...d'zire will be my first choice from now.. =)

heheh... bc decided to perm her hair.. and we went like... one and de half hour late for steamboat.. hehe.. paisehhh...didnt eat much cause i was too hungry liao la..i think....

and then went to sp de house, watch dunno what show.. omg the guy so suai.. heheh.. alrite, i wasnt really interested in watching the show also... was too tired and sleepy...

came back bout 12 something..sighh... too bad la.. my grandparents actually waited for me.. me dun have keys, because i am so SMART and forgot to bring my set of keys back.....=(

have to wake up early tml to qing ming.. sighh. bored...
2:12 AM 3/30/2008

ini hari saya fail saya punya acc

went to coll super early today.. but was almost late for class...
met kylie in mcd... then sat there waiting for vivian and also someone else which .. sigh.. did not appear..
and i was so sure the class will be at b18.. so we all went to b18....
then baru realise the class is at d21... paiseh ohh... sorry yah.. make u all walk extra. heheh...

first period was accounitng, agnes din come... sighh...
got the test paper back today...
told my mum i would fail.. she wouldnt believe me...

mum: hows accounts??
me: cannot la...
mum: why...
me: the lec say a lot people fail in my class...
mum: maybe u are one of those who pass
me: *dunno what to say... i knw i failed*

sighh... i got 7 3/4.. then, i add one mark, become 8 3/4... omg.. what the hell la weiii....
2 more marks and i will pass liao... ishhhhhhh.....

then go library thought wanna do bm...
crap.. wi & william is so crap i couldnt crap more...
lol...end up doing a bit and talk crap in class.. heheh.
i tink i got 6.5 marks for the oral presentation...
walaoeh.. i dont even know what was i reading...
and i got 6.5 lol.. but not graded.. so.... waste time lorrr...

was kinda sad cause my acc fail for the second time.. sighhhh
another 5% gone leiiiiiii
sms-ed z, sp and bc...
sighh
no one really reply xcept z...
thanks yah for coming to the lib =)

after that, ag came, sw came...
then sw and me went to mcd..
wheee...ingatkan mau makan mcflurry...
but too early they dun have it yet... end up with coffee and bubur ayam mcd..hehehe...

omg im starting to fall in love with coffee again lorrrrrrr....
ish... and now, pimples will start to pop up again..
coffee = hitty = more and more pimples....
=(

anyway, went to econs class...
since this week, i dont know why,... but mrs goh sure ask me questions everyday in class wan lorr....
tze ching, give me an example of umemployment...
tze ching, answer number six....
bla bla bla...

and there was this once or twice, she asked me when i dont know the answer...
and when i know the answer, she ask other ppl pulak... ishhhhh

then after class i went to sunway for a while.. thought wanna get a bday present for a fren.. but then no time la.. lazy also.. heheh...
went to buy my green colour facial wash thingy...
and some food.. then i chao home e..
leave agnes there alone.. hehe..sorry la dearrr...have too many things to do e today...

came back, throw all the dirty baju in the laundry, makan, tv,SLEEP... then wake up to hang baju, wash car, and now, online.. hehehe... lol.......

he called me three time but i didnt pick up...
wtf..dun tell me tonight very tired dun wan to go back lo.. i will kill ppl wan lorrr....

haiz.. haven pack also la......
ishhhhhhhhh


monday have legals presentation....
me SKEDD!!!!

and also ESL presentation...
me nore sked legals lei... omg......


hehehe... steamboat tml night.. hehehe....

Birthday Song

Fuck her, Bitch…

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Babi him, idiot….

I got offend u anot? Talk so much.. shut up for a while can anot? Ur bday u very big isit? fucker

warning: boring post ahead

The accounting test today was ok. Not that bad. Alrite, maybe im a lil too confident. But should be able to pass gua… lol. I was confident I could pass too for the common test, but I failed. Sigh.. now, waiting for the result lor.. and 8’s the lucky number =) we’re the second last group to present.. hehe.. I don’t know why but I was damn happy lor when I saw 8. lol. Kay kay… its good cause it gives us a lot more time to prepare. Its not good cause I know the other groups would be presenting better… I suck at presentation.. that’s why im doing SAM and not icpu.. hehe..

Enuf bout those stressful stuff… lol… on my way back just now, I was craving for kong piang(s) .. heheh… weird but yes… then I told myself… its ok… there a lot more in the fridge.. and I don’t mind eating three month old kong piang.. but then when I balik, I mandi, then online for a while… then terus forget bout my yummy kong piang.. heheh…

Sigh.. I wish my bike is here… I wan to go cycling… there’s bike here too.. but I want mine… all the bikes are different.. lol… I want mine I want mine I want mine… haiz… I know im weird… I go cycling when Im super mood-less… and also when im angry.. lol.. kesimpulan, tze goes cycling when she’s in bad mood. =)

Im alone at home lor now.. so lonely bt good also.. alrd no mood..lazy wan argue and talk with ppl summore.. hehe…

I wanna online…………………………………………………………………………………….

Ish geram larrr…

Streamyx in uncle’s room, lazy wan go use dere…

Maxis internet thing… omg I don’t even want to talk abt it. Cant even load GOOGLE.

Neighbour’s line>>> me kena block liao… sighhh

Now, I only have my CDs and my lappy.. lol…

Booringgggg…

omg, still kenot believe im going back THIS weekend. I never thought I would be so excited to go back wan lorrr….

So little time, but so many things to do… hehe… omg omg omg omg omg…

I wanna go cycling, which is not gonna happen..

I wanna go out with frens, hey, hey, lets go lumut again… I miss lumut… bt dere’s nothing nice in lumut…

I wanna go church… which is not possible cause I have to go somewhere else… haiz… go back qing ming ahhh…. Not enjoy ahhhhh…..

I wanna ………………………………………………………………..whatever... Can’t think anymore….

Disc 1: Quincy Chen Ren Fung

Disc 2: Ge Ge Blue

Disc 3: Superman

Disc 4 & 5: Straight to the Point / Super Sunshine *haven decide*

Disc 6: Vick *not gonna listen…*

Can u bliff that’s all the ori album I’ve got? Omg…

Their similarities: they’re all singers.

They’re all MALAYSIAN. =)

to: mummy, mama, and whoever it may concern

mee, ma, i really dont know whether i should laugh or cry when i write this lor.. meee, i want to move out.. best if i move back home. u know i am not good at studies at all. u and dee and everyone else knows.. i always fail. i am not very interested in studies.. look at my attendance in sec school.. and my grades. do u guys think i can do this?? i am not ready at all. well, i was a lil more prepared mentally this year compared to last year.. but,. still...

do u guys ever think of what is my real plan?? i wanted to take ONE year off after spm.. i want to travel.. i wan to do my own things.. but noooo... u guys enrol me for the january intake.. and it was barely a month after my SPM. i failed and i think you guys know why.. i wasnt happy... u guys decided for me..i end up wasting my one year.. i could put the time for better use... please can u just listen to me? but nooo.. majority counts.. i do whatever u guys say... and i failed once...

now, im doing this again.. mum i am not really confident i can do this.. yeah i think i should be able to pass...and now, my dear life is hanging on accounting alone... i am not sure i can even get a 10 for accounting.. im dumb... when it comes to accounting, i am dumber than usual... im worried.. whats the use of saying i must get better result, ask my lec, bla bla bla...

ok back to the reason for this post... as i was saying, i dont know whether i should laugh or cry... i wanted to cry but seeing him, i want to laugh... mum, ur brother... he's so irritating but yet, i dont know what to say... i hate him sometimes, really really hate him...but then, i cant be angry with him...i know he sayang me vry much.. but then, sometimes,.... mum, have u heard that two people with same personality cannot live together?? i cannot promise anything yet.. i dont know whether i will argue with him anot some day... i hope not...

ma, ur son, i really speechless lor..why ur son like that one?? ishhh.. geram la.. but he's ur son, ur my grnadma.. i also canno say anything...

uncle, u also know la.. everyone in the family say u and me are so alike,.. the way u and me talk to the elders when they're nagging and irritating us, the way we act is almost the same...i got nothing to say bout that.... but i do agree that i am rude to the elders in the family soemtimes...
whatever...

i want to say something here lo...i want to say it to ur face, but i cant, because i know i would end up laughing non stop even before i say it... why are u acting like ur so ah beng?? WHY?? u're working in an office, with air cond and stuff and not in any ciplak company... but a quite famous one in the industry...
u are not a vegetable seller in a market, not a char koey teow seller... why the hell are u so ah beng?? omg.. i dont know how long i will tahan.. till the day i say it to ur face..

i seriously wonder how ur gf tahan ur attitude lor.. i mean... u fart and u burp, all those disgusting things in front of her.. and u eat like ah pek in a kopitiam... when u eat, the whole dining table knows... im not saying u shud have 100% perfect proper table manners or what.. but then, i find it quite disgusting to see or hear people eating/ munching so loud...

i know its no point telling u that. cause u'll just end up chewing ur food louder and i'll end up laughing for no reason like what happened just now..



anyway, no offense... i need time to biasakan diri... lol.........


aunty eml, please do not decide for me anymore... u are the reason i started studying and throw away my holidays... they told me, "decide before she decides for u"... so i have not much choice and choose to repeat......

is paper qualifications THAT important??
i think taking life easy and doing things i like one step at a time is more important tho..
what is the use of me having all the paper qualifications i need, i have the best job one could find, but then i am not happy??
doesnt that ever crossed ur mind??

i am not pointing fingers and blamin u or whatever.. its over... just that i had no chance to say this before...


uncle l, thanks for everything.. u didnt take rent from me, u pay for my expensive meals, u let me mess up ur place.. and everything...i dont have much chance to spend time with u these days... u siao wan...go work even before i wake up... and come back onli at mid night....

kung kung, i know u super sayang me, but i didnt even bother to call and say HI. i dont dare to talk to u...and everytime, when u pick up the phone, u just pass it to grnadma.. i miss u.. i really do..sorry for those times i am super rude to u... i dont mean it.. i regret after i say those things, but i have no courage even to say im sorry....im so glad i can write this here and not say it to u face to face.. i wouldnt know where to start and what to say... i am crying... for the very first time here in kl... just because this paragraph... why dont u come to kl e other day with ma ma??? why do u choose to stay alone at home?? why?? u shud enjoy life by now... not working... do u know that?? its not that u cannot afford to not work... take it easy... enjoy life, relax....

daddy, i nver really talked to u too.. the fact that u stay so far away, and comes back to see me onli on the weekends... i know u sayang me too.. but i just dont know what and how to talk to u...

jin, i know, when u're little, u thought i was ur cousin.. but no im ur sister.. then when u slowly grow up...u wished that i would stay with u guys someday...dissapoint u time after time...im am sorry.. and last year, i finally stayed with u.. i know ur childhood dream turned into ur worst nightmare...i boss u around, i showed u how much i hated u.. i scream at u... and whatever,.... but.. all the bad things i do to u... its for ur own good actually..yeah u may think that im so evill why the hell am i doing this to u... i am just ur sister not ur mother... i know u r very pressured even without me... u;re her only son... she wants the best for u... but...... whatever i do, its really for ur own good..... i never meant to be evil...but someone HAS to be the bad guy right????? u'll understand someday... i hope...
in fact, i was jealous of u.. u got all the attention.. i used to get the attention.. but since u were stayin with us in stw when u were little, u got all the attention.. i remember, there was once, i tried to carry u around, but i got scolded cause grandma was worried u would fall.. and yeah, i put all the blame on u... but then, i got scolded for everything that happens... i was jealous of u.. i realised, now, u have ur life, ur frens, and u might be envy of me.. why i got those things u dont get.. why do i have so much more freedom than u.. and all those little things.. i fought for my freedom.. and now i can see ur doing the same.. i dont know why am i saying this, but, mom may control u too tightly... but its for ur own good. u're her one and only son, she raised u up, of course she cares for u more.. altho the way she use is a bit not right(my opinion)..just listen to her for now, u'll get ur total freedom oneday, when u get to college..(i tink).



ps: can u believe it? i actually say those things above. omg



pps:reposted for some reasons =)
ppps: added at 24th march 8.30pm =)

okay, i just changed my layout back to the basic simple black one.
*its because i am starting to think my life is so meaningless, so dark, so down, so i changed it to BLACK.*
nahh.. im not THAT depressed yet.

accountingtestontuesdayand
iamsonotreadyyet
whatshouldidowhoshouldisee
whocanhelpmewhoshoulditalkto?

im freaking out..
i freak out when i see the questions.
and my mind will go blank
how shud i do journal?
ledger?
omgoshomgsohhhhhhhhhhh...

im scared.....

look and understand and make up the story with your own sentences

got them in the email. thought it was kinda cute. so i shared it here. cause i am so lazy to send it to everyone. lol.

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look at this.
i am so PROUD of myself.
i woke up at 2 something in the morning to do my ECONS essay.
and i finished it at 3.30am
i typed it in the laptop first, then copied it in the paper.
thought it was not long enough..
but NOOO
it was too long, i have to leave one whole paragraph out.
and i didnt even typed the conclusion.
and so, i hand it in today, without the conclusion.
omg i never thought i would write two pages worth of ECONS essay.
hahaha..
i know i know...
xcuse me, im ss-ing..
hehehe

sp if finally done with her tests..
update update!!!
lol...

ohhhhh yaaa...
grandma called and asked me to go back on the 29th.
so i have like ONE week to lose weight.
i said i wanna go back on 29th the other day, and she say no.
now, she asked me to go back.
and i MUST go back.
hehehe..
ching ming ma..
lol..
anyways, gonna see my cousins =)
and i seriously have to lose weight.
or else those kay poh people will be like..
"ching ching, u seem fatter now, compared to CNY"
wht the hell..
all i could do is just smile.
it is disrespectful to answer back.
considering that i am a bit rude when it comes to answering this kind of comment.
lol...
IM GOINGBACK!!
IMISSTHEFOOD IN SITIAWANOMGOSH.
STILLHAVETHE KONGPIANGS INTHE FREEZER.
OMGOSHHHHHH....
IM GOING BACKKKKK...

dream journal

i dreamt

-:- the night before last night
i dreamt of .. err.. okay.. i remember.. i was back in sitiawan or something... and i was eating from morning till night... i was having breakfast.. and then i was so tired and i eat so so so SLOW, that when i finally finished my breakfast, Lunch Time is here... so everyone else came to the dining table...and we had lunch! yeah... then i was again eating so damn slowwww.. that when i finished, its time for dinner..

i woke up that morning, i feel scared... how can someone sit in at the dining table and eats from morning till night?? from sunrise till sunsets...

omg thats freaky lorr...

-:- last night
i dreamt of...something..omg i cant rmbr now.. oh ya... i dreamt that my mum and dad and grandma and grandpa suddenly come to visit me. and my dad was in my car when i first saw him. he say he was testing and see whether the car stereo system was working anot. then dad, me, uncle, mum and bro went out to this dunno what place. on the way, i saw shooting stars. yeah... liu xin yu.. omg.. so nice.. then i make ONE wish.. guess what?? i wished that i get good grades in the finals.. yeah i did that... i couldnt believe i made THAT wish.. even in my dream.. omg...

what i keep repeating these days:
YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN TOMORROW
- who knows what will happen tomorrow? so why not enjoy life??



i found out:
Aaron has trouble spelling C-H-I-C-K-E-N
- sighh..... if this is the type of idol/artist lil girls chase after, omg... imagine how the future wud be?


a tagline i saw today:
" SELF DEFENSE ISN'T MURDER "
- from the movie ENOUGH (lol)


who i saw today:
MUN SYNN
- omgosh i miss her so much...


who's out of credit again:
BC
- =)


if i ever get sick these days:
BLAME THE WEATHER.
- it rained at the best time of the day. when i finish class. and i have to walk under the rain. because i am so broke i couldn't afford to get an umbrella for myself. sigh.


i will not:
go Pyramid for one month
- maybe till the end of April.


i am now:
thinking of something
- dont ask its P&C


i hope:
to get the best results in the finals


i am worried:
about accounting


to me:
accounting is so boring
- why ahh?? why accounting ppl ahhh... all so boring wan lei.. erm.. no offense ya sp.. heheheh


i want:
the time to stop here right now
- yeah this isnt the best time... but then, i don't want my off day to end so so fast...


this post is:
extraordinary
- different from my other posts what... so i call it extraordinary laaa...


summary of today:
wahhh... very longgg.....
-wake up
-go coll
-go library
-go malay
-go legals
-go kopitiam
-go library
-go accounting
-go adp building
*it started raining here*
-go mac centre
-go optical shop
-go The Web
-mun synn called
-go meet her
-talked non stop omg im so excited to see her
-too bad.. time.. past so fast
-go esl and leave syn alone =(
-go back *walking in the rain* =)
-buy galaxie on the way to car
-waited for an idiot to finish his business in the bank
-i am so patient but then ... sigh
-honked like three times baru the gf in the car do smtg bout that.. the gf also a bit sot wan... lol
-drive back. i am speechless bout myself. i cant even go SLOW on rainy day.
-saw police
-try very very very hard to keep to speed limit
-i reach home
-get the parking right in front of the hse
-lol i have evil neighbours
-hungryyyy...
-*forgot what happen liao*
-waited for them to come back
-someone fried rice
-turns out to be eatable
-watched tv till 10.30pm
-and now im here doing this
-speechless


what sp told me today:
very long din hear u say u study already lei
- i know...


a new english proverb i learnt in the holidays:
HOT HOT CHICKEN SHIT
-originated from Malay peribahasa, "hangat hangat tahi ayam"



my homework/due-ing assignment:
1. ESL draft
2. ECONS essay
3. Malay Research
4. Legals CPT
- in one day?? die la ...

=+23=

reminder to me:

a. TWO photostated copies of SPM certs & THE ORIGINAL SLIP
b. LEGAL STUDIES preliminary outline
c. ECONOMICS common test essay.

TOmORROW!


i know i will forget all about it tonight when im online.
i thought i submitted the spm slips edi..
i thought i dont need to submit anymore spm slips..
how wrong am i...
now EVERYONE knows im... a year older


raining heavily just now when my class was about to end.
not that i hate rain.
just that i dun like the thunder lor.
and then, i got no where to go.
and then i walked in the rain.
then sampai car.
thinking of what to eat.
hehe.
then.
came back and went to secret recipe.
omgggg...
so so many choices.
choc mud. choc banana. the yogurt kinda cake. brownies.
i resist myself.
and bought choc banana.
omg..
delicious.
then balik..
wash the pot. stupid la wei. i hate washing pots plate whatever.
then cook the rice. haha. it will be more than enough for three person.
lol. tml sure got left over for fried rice.
wakaka.
k lo. i feel. after the holidays. my routine changed also.
i no longer come back and sit in front of laptop anymore.
i come back. cook rice. and eat the cake or whatever i bought.
whatever la.
supposed to bath now. walking under the rain just now.
if im sick or what. blame myself.
=|
i feel
its very
stressful lorr..
and and. i finished my presentation today!
4 mins and 36 sec
lol..
finish the movie during esl today.
watched before edi. long long ago.
oh ya.
the accounting teacher.
she 'counsel' the whole class again.
omg..
this is not the first time she's doing this.
and i am one of those ppl..
who wants only a pass in accounting.
i never look at the A.
i only care whether i pass or i dont.
i think that is where my problem lies.
i need to love accounting.
i will love accounting.
i will study accounting.
i want to get A for accounting.
accounting and legals is not impossible.
i can do it.
i can
i can
if i work harder.
as in. do her homework.




lastly, TZE AHHHH... dun think the impossible larrr....
its impossible so no point hoping for the day to come...
*dun ask*

last friday in the library =(

this is what i did last friday in the library.
told u i've wasted my time there..
click on the pic to read..
lol.


















































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today:
i sms-ed sp saying that i want a hug.
just need a hug.
she was like..
ee yer...
lol...
why do people think that only bf/gf can hug each other?
sighhh...
to me, a hug is just a hug.. its not a kiss or whatever..
i dont know.....
i come from a rather traditional family.
we dont hug each other.
maybe when we're baby, yes we do.
but then, now, no.
we dont even say i love u mummy daddy.
sighhh......

i need a hug...
lol....

I wanna say…

WAI SA!!

(i know.. dah lama tak guna this word edi...i bertaubat edi...but then, reallly geram lorrr)

i tengah sleeping syok syok...

then this stupid call came...

V: eh go charge kung kung's laptop i've found the software edi..

ME: oh..

V: *talk some rubbish that i cant remember*

ME: oh....

V: eh can u give some response anot?? im talking to you here..

* what the fuck.. u want to talk to me means i WANT to talk to u meh??

ME: im sleeping larrrr

........

stupid anot?? tiba tiba kena marah worr...

somemore when im super duper blurrrrr....

idiot la weii...

so i went downstairs looking for the stupid idiotic charger, didnt find any there...

hai dao..... my grandma become my victim pulak...

all because that idiot..

found the stupid charger in the study rooom

idiot la wei...

its in the study room.. ask me go downstairs to look for what????

and also. i thought i wanna stay home the whole day and enjoy my very last day of holiday..

wtf. thought wan stay home during lunch...

but kena force to go for lunch...

letih betul...ingatkan nak buat econs...

so i came back and sleep...

k i'll skip dinner lorrrrr...

wtf... i wake up and grandma say..

someone invited us for dinner.. so we have to go...

he's bringing his family over here....

WTF!!!!!!!

i very benci lo nowwww.....

but then.. ppl invite have to go marr...

what the hell la wei...

geram ohhhhhhhh

btw, lunch was superb... omg delicious...

but expensive.. lol..

back to the topic... wth.. i gotta stay up the whole night to do my econs edi...

what the hellllllllllll

pure-boredom...full of crap

i think i came a bit too early today..

first time i see the area near taylors so quiet one..

hahha

when i came in, the fierce lady was like...

"can u check and see what time is the library open on saturdays?"

so i went out and see... 9am - whatever time...

wtf.. it was 8.42am then....

haiz... have to wait outside for another 20 minutes..

called agnes dear, she's still sleeping.. omg!

then stand near the library.. damn hot lo.. ishhh...

crystal came, talk for a while, then...

we came in the library and im online waiting for agnes to come..

=(

oh ya.. my phone, dropped from the VERY TOP of the locker just now...

sad sad...

and also...

i accidentally hit the power button on the cpu, all my search results gone!

i think i wake up and came too early thats why.. haizzz

wtf have to start all over again..

waited for everything to start all over again, then log in bb6...

chicken de lorrr...

bb6 always have prob de..

how the hell am i supposed to print the notes?????

ish...

lucky, it can work after that.. lol...

and now, im just boreeed....


edit:
agnes came after i post this thing..
then went over to sit with her, with the hope that i could at least discuss something..
but then, we went to look for book, and sat down, and continue talking till the time comes for us to leave..
went to sunway today again..
had the dunno what mee for lunch at ichiban ramen..
then went walking for bout an hour..
then went to the cinema to wtch ah long pte ltd..
funny lei.. agnes was laughing so loud..
omg...
then after habis, we went to buy my gui lin gao and also agnes' cha yie dan..
omg.. spend rm30 just on those herbal stuff..
bankrap liao la....
omg...din realise it was that expensive before i paid for it...
sighhhh...
luckily, it wasnt over budget..
just that my last week's money, habis kering... ngam ngam left rm30 for me to spend.. omg
i will have to start savin money again..
sighh

yea then we went home...
i sampai rumah sajer, the who say wanna go out again..
wtf..
i dropped my phone again.. ths time in front of him..
haizz...
i fell asleep waiting for his gf to come lo.. lol
since she's coming ask me togo summore for what..
btw, we didnt get to buy what we wanted..cause some people was so last minute..
lol....

then went to buy some groceries...
buy food then balik...
letih betul..
but have to help...
haizz.........

now, im here updating again when im supposed to be doing my homework.. aiyooo
today very tired lei.. if i can i want to sleep now lor...
haizzz...

mum might want to come for ptm..
omg..CANNOT!!!

emptiness...

emo-ing...

sad...

down...

frust..

disappointed...

L-I-F-E


why why why??
why me?
why now?
why again?
whyyyyy???

sighhhhhhhhhhh......................



WHY??

I am OLD enough to know what is RIGHT and what is WRONG. I can DECIDE for myself. I have the RIGHT to CHOOSE for myself. You guys are just OVER PROTECTIVE! Face it! I AM NOT a 3 year old anymore.

questionsss...........

been thinking a lot lately..
sometimes, i wonder if taylor's is where i belong..

sometimes, i wonder...
where will i be if im not in taylors?
what will i be doing??
will i meet such friendly and cheerful people??

the answers are simple i guess.......
if i am not in taylors repeating my SAM, then i will be in help doing my degree in psychology.
i will not meet agnes, she wont be my abuser.
zokhri will not be my lecturer,
rachel remains as unknown neighbour from sitiawan,
wan ting, maybe someone i wont meet at all,
and ....(lazy wan give examples liao)

cyn cyn will be my roommate and classmate..
adeline will be my classmate...
meihwei will be my senior by one semester. fullstop..


i doubt cyn will have a peaceful life if im there with her... hahhaha...
i depend on people alot... thats why..
sometimes, i just cant help but wonder...
if i was in taylors last year instead of disted, will i get better result??

& what is the point of this postt??
what the hell....
i am confused...
and it seems that, my new found frens always leave half way thru the course...
last year, it was evon, wen xin and yen yen...
this year, rachel left edi...
sighhhh...........

election 2008

for the very FIRST time in MY history, i actually follow the news on who won the election, who lost and got kicked out, and was sms-ing thru the tensed-nail-biting period when some of the results are out and some were just still counting.

sms-es flew in bout unofficial news, the TV were turned on to those channel with election news update, the laptop were turned on, hoping and waiting for the latest news. and i actually stayed up till 2.10am to follow the news.

the results were extra-ordinary. all these while, i thought there's no need to catch the news, BN will still win anyway.. but then, last night, it was different. the opposition secured much more seats this time, taking over 5 states in malaysia.

some of the ministers lose their position in the state or district level (whatever), and thus, they cannot be ministers anymore.. at one point, i thought that there will be a big big change in the government (the opposition take over or soemthing).. but then, in the end, BN still win the parliamentary seats by more than 50%.

so, the current government is still under BN (pardon me if i give any wrong details here...im clueless about politics). and BN din manage to hit the 2/3 of the parliamentary seats, so they have no *errr* kuasa to pinda the perlembagaan unless they get support from the opposition party... ( so?? no idea how is that important)

oh ya. only this morning i realise. the opposition means DAP + PKR + PAS + whatever other parties. he he. i know. im SLOW. haha

in conclusion, what the hell am i havin a post on politics? omg. i cant believe i wrote this. =)

ps: this is the last election where i masih tak layak vote. next election, will be my first time LAYAK voting. he he. saddd.. im getting OLD

[edit:]
forgot to say. now, i see democracy really do exist.
democracy - by the people, for the people.

[edit again:]

this came in the sms..

Except for the constitution of Sabah, Sarawak, Malacca, and Penang, all other state constitution provide that the MB must be a Malay. This means that in Selangor and Perak no matter who holds the most seats, the MB must belong to the Malay community

to be edited later on if i have any more comments.

yesterday, we went to sg wang. i was just telling someone that my mum will not ever go to sg wang. then we went. lol. what a total opposite of what i said. alright. i wanted to buy something and my uncle suggested sg wang. so all 6 of us squeeze into the normal size waja and off we went to shop shop shop. i am the one who is supposed to buy lots and lots of stuff, but end up my bro bought more than me. lol. unfair la wei. hahah. i dont care la now. lazy wanna argue with him edi. i grow up edi. i wont argue with him anymore. unless .... who knows.. hahahha

ish... geram larr.. why yesterday go sg wang?? why not to day??? why why why why why!!!!!!
i suggested we go today...

V: why? why u wan go on sunday?
T: nothing
V: sure got somehting one. tell me why first...
T: nothing larrr..forget it la...
M: ohhh i know why ediiiiii....ur gary is gonna be there....
*ish.. in the end.. went on SAturday also wat,...*


right, then after sg wang, we were looking for a place to makan.. went to jalan alor area, no stalls were open at that time, then went aroudn there.. nothing much to makan also..so my uncle was saying there's a foo chow restaurant nearby. and we went cause we wanted to taste the originality of the food there.

turns out they have quite nice food. not too bad for a foo chow restaurant in kl. but then, its a foo chow restaurant in KL. so, its not that original after all. for the red rice wine noodles, they use hong zhao insted of red rice wine for the soup. the fish balls were.. not bad, quite nice, but still different from what we got in sitiawan.

turns out that the owner is originally from foo chow province in china. he came to malaysia when he was 16 and has been doing business for 51 years already. i notice there were 5 earings on his ears. two on one side and three on the other side. i do not even have ONE. lol.

and my complaint bout that place is... THE BARLEY I ORDERED NO TASTE LARRR...

right, after testing out the food there, we went to see the condo in changkay view, near mont kiara. that place is quite nice but a bit too far i think. altho its just beside the highway, but we have to go one whole big round just to access to that place. and the sales person is a lil too unfriendly, i dont know why. maybe he's been working for the whole day already. whatever.

then, we came back home.. ahhh.. home sweet home...

-----*

today, we were supposed to go out shopping. grandma said we can go out as soon as she finishes cooking. but in the end, no one wants to go out, so only me, my mum and bro went. supposedly, we wanted to go popular to get his stupid online games card and then my tea and then come back. we end up going for pretzels (idiot make me walk so far), and also my mum did some shopping.

dont need to say where we went. i only know how to go to ONE shopping centre. ha ha.
its my SUSHI place. lol.

alright, came back at around 4 something. drop by ss15 just to get kaya. lol. then, my parents and bro head back to penang. sigh. i feel so so bad for making my dad come all the way here cause he's sick. sighh.. sick also have to drive so far down. and. i feel sorry for grandpa. he he. my grandma is here, so grandpa have to go with roti and his oats for ONE week. last friday to Next sunday.. sorry.. =(

alright, this two days, i seriously had too much too eat.

from one and the half meal a day to a full 3 meals a day.
omg. after this holiday. im gonna be fatter...
sighhh.....

*brainwashing*
i will not eat.
i will not eat.
i will not eat.
i will not eat. that much.
hahahahha,....

came back after class yesterday for a few hours before going back to coll for the SAM Fiesta thingy..
still wasnt sure whether i am going anot till accounting class. ha ha...
i came back, i slept, i bathed and i watched TV and i went..
reached there almost time... couldnt find parking...
so cham lor have to park so so farrrr...
alright, i borrowed the hair dryer from my uncle and u know what he said??

*knock knock*
T: can i borrow ur hair dryer?
V: wait wait...
*hands the hair dryer to me*
V: this hair dryer i last time use for Beemer one...
but never mind la.. can use also...


wtf... give me de hair dryer used for dog de.. chin kat....!!!!


anyway, i came back at 11.15pm and sampai bout12am.. then mandi and online till 1.30am....
i was so blurrrr that i dont even remember to set alarm...

result: today i woke up almost an hour late...

i woke up thought its 5am.. mana tau.. look at the phone... alrd 6.50am...walaoeh...damgerous lorrrrrr....
fast fast get ready.....then chao go coll... parked quite far lei...haiz.. leg pain also have to walk so far..sienxxx

then go class, accounting... she wasnt really teaching cause everyone is so tired...hahahah

then break two hours, we went to cari tukang kunci cause got some very smart ppl lock her keys in the room. hahahha.... then go to her place there and online till time for class... went to econs, group discussion..wasnt really discussing, everyone doing their own things...lol...bored bored...

then malay... lagi siennnnnn....
he came in.. mark attendance, ask us to go library...
sighhh..
im slacking in malayyy...
the research thing which i should have lots of sources by now, sighhh.. i satu pun belum cari... belum pun mula nak cari lagiii..
aiyoooo....taking life toooo easy edi larr...

then i cepat cepat balik and wait for my parents to come...
walaoeh...my grandma brought her whole kitchen here...
kicap la this la that laaa...
all bring worrr....

die edi larrr...
this time... my detox plan will fail again....fail teruk somemore...
this holiday... sure gain weight again larrrrr...

howwww????



ps : forgot to adddd... i saw DONG!! on the way to coll for the fiesta the other day.. she was near asia cafe with someone... hahaha... omg din expect to see her... i saw her.. she was like...blurrr.. i was more blurrr.. cause she looks a lil different from before...hahah...
talked for a while before i went off and more of her frens come... she didnt HAVE my number.. omg.. she said she nvr had my number before.. omg........ thats badd... bad bad bad....
how could i have her num then???
sighh...hahahahha...anyway.. its a surprise to see her there

formulas..hehe

Sunway Pyramid = Sushi

Ichiban Ramen = Fried Rice

McD = Big Mac

Agnes = Abuser + Lovely Datin

Cabana = Cantonese Style Yee Mee

Asia Cafe with Sim = Pan Mee

Tze, although I couldn't meet up with you, still glad we have linked blogs and msn! Hehe. Miss the crazy times we had in college insulting our English lecturer and being late for every assignment. Lol.

the above was quoted from tiffy's bloggie. alright, she posted it on the feb 17th, and i onli see it today..
sorry for the blurrness..

and here is the reply...

Tiffy, thanks for being my friend. meeting u guys in disted is a blessing. thanks for those good memories in disted. without u guys, life in disted would be like hell. i am so sorry that i couldn't meet up with you. but, the world is round. one day, someday, we will meet again. i'll be checking ur blog everyday, so make sure u update your blog yah.. and lastly, take care in aussie...

ps: the only thing i miss about disted is u guys and also the frequent class skipping =p
and also the time we spent playing tic tac toe in accounting class, while the others were busy figuring out the answers..exam was round the corner then...
ha ha..

pps: we DID NOT insult miss jenny... we just complained that she's naggy. hehe...

sigh...today is sure DEPRESSING lor..
sigh..mood swings maybe...


sigh sigh sigh

did she know already?
did she realized it before someone else does?
did she? is that why she's doing all this to me?
as a form of helping me?
i want to know...
why is she saying all these, why is she doing all these,
its like...
she's trying to create chances..
i feel but i am not sure...
is she or is just me perasan-ing?

i want answers...
i want to know..
i am curious...
i am blur..
i ......

sigh....
why is it so hard??
if i ask her, and she doesn't know whats going on, it means im telling my own secret..

all the things she said...
is she trying to give a hint??

are they joining forces to make me feel bad??
what if whatever she told me is fake?

sigh..
how if all this is just a trap...


sighhh.... only 3 person knows..
god, me and anonymous...


the others, stop asking nonsense larrr.......


x---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------X

interact carnival on 22nd of March 2008
venue: ACS Sitiawan
time: 9am - 2pm
guest: Jin (11.30am - 12pm)

this is so unfair. i wanna go interact carnival too. i dont know why is it unfair but its unfair cause i feel its unfair. haha.

i miss those times..
first year, i was with the roti jala stall, second year i was the supervisor of the dunno what lame games stall, third year i was with the lok lok stall. i think thats all.
one more thing to miss about school.
INTERACT CARNIVAL.
one day where i can go out of the house before the sun rises and goes back when the sun sets and i actually had fun.
altho tiring.
hahaha.
i remember we went into the haunted house one year, and then we scream like hell.
and after that, we never go to haunted house anymore.
=)

and then, there was this once, we had to clean after the carnival..
and the drain was so dirty with those left overs..
i am one of those very lucky people who have to stick our hands into the yucky smelly drain to take out those yucky smelly ewwwwww sampah which consists of plastic bags, foods (bluekkkk) and whatever...

and there was once, i cycled in total darkness to school because i think its fun to do so. grandma was super worried but i insist..
all i could think is the fun of cycling in the dark alone..
never think of the dangers.

and the joy of selling those coupons..
have to be thick face and sell..
hahaha...

sighhh....
school and college is like two different world...

=(

my last post says " Tze will not go to Pyramid anymore"
well, at least till after my break.
but, guess what??
I will go to Pyramid again TOMORROW.
haha...and its barely a week after i say i wont go.
sighh... hopeless lar wei..

it keeps raning this few days.
sigh...
so depressing lor when its raining.

yesterday was really ... dunno how to say...
we were laughing out heart out in malay class while the others were trying to study malay, i struggle to keep my eyes open during econs and accounting, and legals, omg...i have no idea what was the whole lesson about. trying to digest whatever that has been taught, but then, still, everything makes no sense... then i remember i was half day dreaming cause i was very very blurrrrr about the lesson..sighhh...die la like that...
esl was..boring...we went to the library to get the reference thing..she called it a "treasure hunt" duh!

went to the web instead cause the library wass...too many people inside larr...
half way thru the 'treasure hunt', it started to rain..
sighh...
it gets heavier by the time we enter the class...
we were stranded in coll larrr...

wanted to walk in the rain tho.. but dont wan to look like an idiot walking in such a heavy rain without an umbrella..
hahahha...

and and.. i had ice cream when i got back...out of all the days i can have an ice cream, i choose a rainy and cold day.. hahah.. i know la im weird...

sighhh...yesterday, i actually studied a lil..study means taking out the book and read thru.. hahah.. for bout 20 minutes.. but sms-es keep coming in, so i off de lights, reply all the sms-ed and went to bed. haha

sigh, this post is super boring nehh.....


thought i want to revise a lil in the library...
sighh..
now is almost time edi.. wanna go class liao...

legals... omg...

dear god, i pray that i would understand whatever that is taught today and yesterday and the days to come...
=P

29th Feb in Pyramid

seriously, i have to stop giving excuse for going sunway every friday.
mum is like .. what you do there every week ahhh???

alrite..
after malay class, i came back, wanted to bath and sleep but then i couldn't resist the temptation to get online and check for blog updates.
then i bath and continue reading blogs, replying messages and then its 2.20pm..
omg almost time alrd...
fast fast go tidur...
then at 2.45pm, sp messaged me..
i reply the message half dreaming half awake...
continue sleeping till agnes called me..
hahha...it was alrd 3pm..

if she didnt call me, i would still be sleeping till god knows what time...
alrite, i went to look for my bag, stuffs, keys, and that took me almost 20 minutes...
it wasnt that jam at that time...
but sj was quite jam...
sighh...

sampai pyramid like about 3 something...
met up with jun nee, agnes and vivian..
hehehe...
paiseh... have to let them wait for me..
cannot find parking ahh..

then me and jun nee went to makan de dunno what thing..
i had banana chocolate and she had..
erm..some cheese and chicken thing...
i was still kinda blurr that time tho...

my banana chocolate

jun nee's erm... cheese chicken hot wrap

one day, we shall try this.
when its open.
its square.
looks big.
hahaha

then we went to makan while looking for leng chai's at the skating ring..
dissapointed..
dun have leng chai.. but got la la chai..hahaha...
the evil jun nee, she was counting the number of people who fell..
and there was once, she was like.. "fall fall fall.. yay!! she felll...."
heheh...

yeah...agnes and vivian came to find us and they walked past us..
THEY WALKED PAST US without realising we're there, LOOKING at them, WALKING PAST US.
heheh.. we decide to scare them a lil...
for walking past US.
hahah

then we went jalan jalan lor...
cudnt rmbr what happened after that...
i know i bought a purple shirt, junnee got a skirt, and....
cant remember larrr.....

oh ya.. we went to FOS and jun nee did this...

she tried on almost all the bangles she could reach

close up

we continue walking and shopping till we lapar and go makan...
guess what...
SUSHI again..
yea.. and i just had sushi on thursday night in pyramid too...
omg... now [PYRAMID = SUSHI]

went back at around 8.40pm...
mum called when im on my way..
lecture me on de danger of going back so late at night...

sigh...
she called me and lectured me again yesterday..

angry! i am very angry la wtf..i wonder why a 30 year old guy cant seem to grow up... be responsible a bit can anot.. idiot la wei...so disgusting you know??? what the...

i know this may seem like a minor thing.. but its stil very disgusting lor..like, when he cook something, and the kuali is stil there for two week.. imagine dirty kuali in the basin for two weeks or more.. what the fuck la wei... sampai dah berulat pun tak tau cuci lagi... ish... very very disgusting lor....

and... somemore complain i wash not clean enough...walaoeh..u so smart right??? wash urself la... u can wash urself i also dont wan wash for u lar... somemore the kuali bukan i guna wan...walaoeh....i reallly cannot stand lor...say if i wash like that, its better to leave it there and let him wash it himself. fuck la wei...when u wanna wash?? tomorrow?? day after tomorrow?? next week or next month or next year???

i didnt ask u to help me wash my cups and plates also.. did i ever say.. please la.. help me wash lar... u urself saje saje cuci kan.. i tak suruh pun..

babi betul lar...im alrd so damn messy and irresponsible.. i tak sangka in this world got ppl more messy and irresponsible than me lor.. and... dont he know what clean up means?? if my dad is here, he'll blame me for inviting the ants... fuck la wei...


iiisssshhhh!!! geram betul... and the cups he use.. is stupid fucking dirty lorr...i just say its dirty and disgusting.. like that also he tembak me back wor...


eh!!!come on lar.. when did i eat oats and didnt wash myself?? when did i eat oats and left it there for two entire weeks sampai semut pun datang.. babi betul lar... dah nak berulat tau...

damnit....



the woooorrrrssssttttttttt part is, i cant do anything cause he's older than me...


how 'cool' is that???



FUCK!